It really sounds like you should look for another job. If you can't then you should open up to your mom and your counselor. Try talking here some, this could help you to open up. It is important to be honest for anybody to help you.
Maybe the job you had became tiresome and a new one could bring some excitement to your life. You need to do something, obviously you need an income.
I wish you luck, please keep posting, we will help you to open up so that you can talk to the other people that you need to. These things take time and they don't happen overnight.
Good luck with this,
Hi there Jenny,
I understand that this is frustrating for you at the moment. I think you would benifit from getting a councillor. I wouldnt expect you to be able to open up straight away to a complete stranger but as you have more sessions with her/him you will find that (usually) you get to know them and you become more comfortable talking to them. Thats when you open up. The later you leave it though, the harder it will be. Sometimes, we have to grab the bull by the horns and just go for it. It is very difficult for a doctor to help you if you cant tell them everything which is why it is important to keep going to the sessions.
Looking for another job is important as well, not only financially but for your mental health as well. The longer you stay off work, the easier it is to lable yourself as "useless, a failure etc..." when its not really true. But, in my opinion, the most important thing is to get some councilling started.
For the immediate problem, I think it would be great if you could talk to someone to release some of the pressure you have from bottling this up. There are loads of helplines you can ring such as:
1-800-442-4673 - Hopeline
1-800-784-2433 - National Suicide Helpline
I am assuming that you are living in the States, but just in case you are a UK resident (Like me) you can always ring:
08457 90 90 90 - The Samaritans
Big British Hugs
Post Edited (djdaz_1985) : 2/27/2008 5:11:33 PM (GMT-7)
Dont mention it, thats what we are here for! Please keep yourself safe and talk to someone.
Let us know how you get on
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Dear JennyHello this is Kitt and I have depression and it has been a part of my life for 28 years now. I have survived even when there were times the pain was unbearable I always believed it would get better.
I have the feeling your thinking we are all saying talk, talk, talk, how is that going to help? Talking about how you feel greatly reduces your feelings of isolation and distress.
Some of your issues may never be completely resolved by counselling, but a good counsellor should be able to help you deal with them constructively at present, and to teach you better coping skills and better methods of dealing with problems which arise in the future.
If it is not a counselor, then try your Mom, give her a chance. Or perhaps you have a relative that you can talk to. Nothing is ever so bad that you cannot tell someone. People are very compassionate and we have all lived through some bad times.
Would it work for you to write down what kind of job you might be interested in trying, maybe part time or even just volunteering as that way you can stop if it is not a good fit for you.
Also exercise, join a YMCA and you will meet friends to just visit with, you do not have to tell them your problems but you will feel better getting out of the house.
When I feel low I practice making sure I smile at others and say hello, and I find I feel better for making them feel good.
Being depressed causes us to narrow our view of the world around us to such an extent that reality becomes distorted. Let us help you out of this place your in. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and please keep walking toward it.Hugs
It really can get better. You may just of had a counselor that you weren't comfortable with. There are many good counselors out there. Maybe you should give it another try.
I am so sorry that your best friend did that to you. She really wasn't being a very good friend. We will not judge you here for anything. Everybody is human, we all have our share of problems. I have to take all kinds of madications for depression. That is why I think that you should give your meds a chance to work. I take three different kinds and they work for me, but it took some time to find the right ones. But you can be happy. Trust me.
Don't feel like an idiot Jenny, you aren't an idiot. I know how you feel, I spent two years in bed, didn't want to see anybody or even talk on the phone. I wouldn't even answer it. I missed out on so much, I listened to life go by through the window. In the meantime I aged two years. But I found help, and you can too.
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Please dont feel like an idiot saying those things... this is the sort of thing that goes towards helping people release some of the pressure inside. Im sorry you had such a bad experience the last time you shared your thoughts with someone... I am thinking that if you were in school, you were quite young. Sometimes when we are that young, it is difficult for someone to completely understand what you are telling them and that may be why she told other people (Because she didnt fully understand). I can relate to you in terms of age as I am 23 and have experience both personally and within my family. Please do not feel you are alone. Please try another councillor... sometimes when we get a councillor, we dont quite gel with them as well as we should and this is normal. My advice would be to try someone else. Also, as Lynnwood has said, talk to your doctor about medications. As I understand you are on medication at the moment (although Im not sure what), it may be that you just need the dosage changed or perhaps a new medication is needed.