I will try not to write a novel but after my son died I was always noticing signs. If I was out doing something or driving the car his song would come on, "Unchained Melody" The tears would pour down my face and I would want to just drive into the corn field and sit there waiting for someone to come and take care of me, to make me better.
I walked around for months thinking people were looking at me as "The lady whose son died in that terrible car crash"
I would sit at the cemetery and always a squirrel would appear and chatter at me. One day I saw a small deer. I would walk through the cemetery looking for other stones of young adults and teens who had died tragically as I was looking for other parents that might feel as I did.
That was 17 years ago that the accident happened. I went to the cemetery on Tuesday and sat in my car and cried my heart out. I called my daughter and told her where I was...........she said " I know your feeling sad Mom" Hey she validated my feelings and she understood.
I know all about those signs that come out of no where and hit you right in the heart.
If you feel you need to go to the hospital I would support you on your decision. I do not want you to live your life sad.
I still have bad moments but I have many more good times now. I will never forget but I will never understand either. So I pray for strength and I throw myself into helping others and I so want to help you. Please let me.Hugs
May you get your dream job, A job is a blessing from above and I think it is time for you to rake in some blessings. I wish you all the best and please know I am here, do not hesitate to contact me.
We all do believe in you. We are so excited about your new job as you are.
I thought that I took a lot of meds, I can see it is nothing compared to what you take. How do you remember them all? I have a hard time filling my pill box at the beginning of the week. It becomes stressful though if I don't.
I wish for you a wonderful evening.
I know how it feels to have the car salesmen driving you crazy. Do you know that you can nagotiate though. You can make a lesser offfer on the car and sometimes they will go for it just to make a sale. Of course that cuts on their commission, but with the economy as it is, they often go for it. Even if they say the price is firm. So often it is a buyers market. I also learned that with furniture and jewelry. They will come down on the prices, everything is so over priced. So use some of you skills and try to get them down on the prices. That way you feel kind of good for getting them back for being so darn pushy.
I truly hope that this works for you, the salesmen get bonuses for how many cars that they sell and will often give up their commission, just to sell another car. I think that you can do this. Dicker with them and see how it goes. For instance, tell them, I really like this car, but I will only spend this much. They do go for that often.
Good luck with your resumes. I know that you will get the job that you are wanting. You are very smart Teresa, use that brain of yours.
I'm glad you are feeling slightly better today.
I just want to wish you loads of luck with the job, I so hope you get what you want, you certainly deserve to and you are so smart.
For some reason salesmen do not have a good sense for siizing up women............. I made more money then my hubby and I do not have to ask permission for what I do.
I went to car dealer to pick up my car as the radiator had quit. They told me it would be $750.00 to fix. So I said let me think a minute. I walked around the show room looking at the cars..........NO ONe approached me so I said in my assertive sweety mousy voice "Excuse Me, could I get some help"
Saleman finally came over and said can I answer a question...........I looked him in the eye and I said " I want to buy this brand new red Pontiac Grand Prix now" Test drove it and loved it.............the salesman said you want to talk to your husband..............
I looked at him and said Why? It is my car. Keep the broken one and lets make a deal. I drove that car home with the sun roof open and the stereo blasting.
Go car shopping sweetie, have a blast. Make them show you every car in the lot and line them up so you can compare colors.
I will be gone for 4 days so when I get back I will be looking to see how it went for you. You go girl.LoveKitt
Please don't drink too much wine, you take so many different medications and very high doses. You know we are going to worry about you. Maybe just a small glass to relax, though in all honesty, I want to tell you not to drink at all.
We really care about you here, we know how hard that you have been struggling. Maybe a nice relaxing bath or a good television show would make you feel better. Do you ever rent movies? I like comedies of course because they make me laugh. We could all use that from time to time.
Please keep us posted on how you are doing. And please be careful with the alcohol. You have me a little worried, though I am a worrier anyway. Can't help it , especially with people that I care so much about.
Take care, relax and try to be careful.
Luv and hugs,
I am dreaming of a new car too and I do not have the money for one so I drive my old granny car and it makes me feel old. Somewhere we have to find the faith to accept things as they are. I am not a young chicky anymore and I have to let go of wanting to go back in time. I am in a new time zone now and there must be great things here for me.
So like Dorothy, I am off to see the wizard to see what new and fun thing I might enjoy. I so love to help people. If I was near you we could go drive the car dealers nutso.
I ride a motorcycle, you want me to teach you? I live in a cold state and I hate cold weather, next winter I have vowed to spend 3 weeks somewhere warm even if it is under the board walk in Miami.
Please take care and smile, even if it is through the tears, smile for me.
I hope that you are feeling well. Though I do worry when you say that you are drinking wine. Not that you would get drunk or anything like that, but daily consumption will make you more depressed. I like to drink a couple of beers everyday, but I haven't been and I noticed that my depression has lifted some. So I know that the beers were making me depressed and I didn't get a buzz even. I just want you to know that I worry because I care about you and your well being. So enough of that.
I hope that you are having a wonderful evening. Take care.