I too am sorry to hear about what has happened. It is important to take the time you need to grieve. Things will come together but only if you take the time out for yourself. Have you talked to your doctor about this?
We will all be here for you if you want to talk
I am so sorry for your loss and I agree with the others, you need to give yourself time to grieve. There is set time limit on how long this will be but I do know that time will dull the pain and the good memories will stick with you.
You will always miss your friend but you must have hope that things will get better for you.Hugs