First of all, we all go through the stage of wondering who we are and why are we here, that comes with time as you get to know yourself. That can't be rushed, but rest assured, you aren't the only one with these questions. So please be patient with yourself.
You might need to talk to your doctor about the way the meds are affecting you. Maybe you need a different medication.
Your life will change as you grow. Are you happy living with your bf? It sounds like you were under a lot of stress at home. Just give youself a chance to addapt to the change. This all takes time, so dont' beat yourself up over it. There is nothing wrong with the way you feel. This is normal. Just keep trying and I am sure that you will feel better soon. Do you go to counseling? That could be an option in the process of finding yourself. Believe me when I say I have been there. I wondered for years who I really was. Sometimes it takes a while to figure that out.
In the meantime, Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. Also I am sure that others will post here, and probably have better answers than that of mine.
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies