Post Edited (MMMNAVY) : 3/11/2008 9:10:26 PM (GMT-6)
I think that you are doing what I do. It is called obsessive thinking. I think that you should try to relax and what ever will happen will happen. If your bio parents are nice, that is good. Then there will be no conflict. I think that you should let your adopted parents go with if they want. Then you will get past this fear that you are experiencing. But that is just my opinion. So not to worry. I think that everything will be just fine.
I am not a professional by no means and this is just my opinion. I do not think that you are a horrible person, I think that you are a good person and that you are just worrying. I think that you have to learn that you are a good person. Put some faith in you new parents I think that they can handle your bio parents.
I hope that this helps some.
You can always talk to us here. I can understand you wanting to get your things by yourself. Partly as a way of protecting your adoptive parents and partly to give you a true sense of closure. But I can see that things have the potential to get ugly so would it work if your adoptive parents were to wait in the car round the corner? That way, you can go in on your own but if things get too much or you run into trouble, you can call them and they can help support you? You seem to be a really nice, kind person to me and I wouldnt want you to think anything different.