I found this site yesterday and i have to say that it did help me reading other peoples problem, yesterday i honestly think i was suicidal. I have been dianosed with manic depression and right now i am having problems with my husband of 30 years. He doesn't understand my illness or don't want to. I was locked down for 10 days to find meds that would help me but now i have no insurance so i can't afford the meds i need. The thing that has brought me so low, i found out that my husband talks to someone 5-6 times a day, usual before he goes to work and then after he gets off, i confronted him with it and he won't tell me who, he tells me he can have a friend that i don't have to know about, how can i trust him and how do i get out of this funk.
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All I have done is changed the case of your post from BLOCK CAPS to Sentence case. We ask people not to post in block caps as it is bad internet etiquette and some people consider it rude. For a full list of forum rules: http://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=46&m=106997 Darren
Post Edited By Moderator (djdaz_1985) : 3/16/2008 12:09:21 PM (GMT-6)
First of all welcome to the depression forum, we will help you in any way we can.
Secondly, I have to ask you from now on please don't post in all capitals, it is hard to read and people think that you are shouting. So if you can, use the regular printing. Thank you.
Thirdly, your husband shouldn't be talking to somebody else and shouldn't be telling you that it is none of your business. I am sure he wouldn't like it if you did that to him. Try not to dwell on it though, that will only make you more depressed.
There are programs for people with no insurance, I would suggest you contact Social Services and find out if you qualify for any help. You should be able to get help with doctors visits and with your medications.
For now try some deep breathing to relax, no matter what is going on around you, you have to try to relax. You can't control a lot of the circumstances but you can control how you react. So first of all try to get some help with meds and dr appts. Then get some counseling to help you deal with the rest. I do think that your husband is wrong for keeping secrets, but that should be the least of your worries right now because you have to take care of you. So try to put that out of your mind and do some things to make yourself feel better. You are a special person and you deserve to feel good. Maybe we can find some resources for you to find some help with the meds and the appts. Also some doctors can give out samples of the meds that could get you through until you can get some other help. I would talk to them about it.
I hope that this helps some, keep posting, we are here for you.
Luv and hugs, Karen
You have already been given some great advice regarding the meds issue. As for your husband, as Shy has mentioned, it is difficult for someone who has no experience of a disease/disorder to understand sometimes. I think the fact that he is talking to someone is a good thing because it means he is not allowing the feelings to be bottled up and fester. I guess the question is whether you trust your b/f to only be talking.