You are certainly not crazy. Does this really have to be the end? If you met him over the phone, then surely you can carry on over the phone? If this is the end, think carefully about what you have lost. If you never met him and things kept 'coming up' my gut would say that he was not that serious in the first place. I think its really cruel that people paint pictures like that but have no intention of being part of it. Im so sorry that you have to go through this, but please dont lose control of yourself for a man you never met.