Have you considered talking to your doctor about this? It may be that the meds are part of the problem. Also, have you explained everything to your boss? It may be they can give you light duties for a while and build yourself up. Please dont beat yourself up over this... it is a problem loads of people have and it can be sorted. Its just a case of finding out what is causing it and then changing it.
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I have to say that first of all you are having all or nothing thinking and that can make you very anxious. You don't know that the people at your next job aren't going to be friendly. They could be even more friendly than the people at your current job.
I would think that if your husband isn't working, that he could help around the house. Or be looking for some kind of job that would help out financialy. I don't mean to put your husband down, but it sounds as if you are carrying a very full load. Plus with all the worry about the bills and such, that is very taxing on the mind.
You may need your wellbutrin bumped up. You have probably gotten to the point where you need more. Also I would like to add that a woman's sex drive has a lot to do with how she feels about herself. So it may not be the medications, but what is going on with yourself. Try some selfnurturing, even though you may not have time, make the time. After all, you are worth it. We tend to have to feel good about ourselves to have a normal sex drive. Like I say you are worth it, take a nice leisurly bath, pay attention to your body and maybe play some relaxing music to help you to feel better about yourself.
You are going through so much right now, don't be hard on youself. Try to picture good things happening at your job instead of underminding yourself. Your thought process can be very detrimental to yourself, so try to think positive.
Are you getting any counseling during this? I feel that it is so important to you. If you can't afford it, check into some mental health programs, there is a lot out there for people who need help but can't afford it.
It sounds to me like you need to work on yourself at this point, meaning getting the help that you need and learning to love yourself. Like I say you are carrying a full load and that isn't fair to you right now. He should be helping you by doing more around the house and looking for work. I may be way off base, but that is what I understand from your post.
Also for anxiety issues, there is a wonderful forum on anxiety and some of the people might be able to help you, if nothing else, read some of the threads, maybe you will find some answers.
I forgot to welcome you to the forum, you will find many wonderful understanding people here. So keep posting, I am sure some will have better answers than I have.
I hope that you have a wonderful day. And I hope that you will feel better soon. We are here for you to help you in anyway that we can.
Gentle hugs, Karen
Post Edited (getting by) : 3/16/2008 3:01:28 PM (GMT-6)
I would certainly talk to your doctor about bumping your wellbutrin up. If you feel it is an effective drug but there isnt enough of it increasing it may eb the simple answer. Also, please dont be afraid of asking to work from home. If there is a trust issue going on, ask them for a 1 week trial so you can prove yourself. If you dont ask, they definately wont let you!