To start with, I'd like to say the good things that have happened lately. See, I've really liked this guy for a long time. I like him a lot, and I never thought that he would ever give me a chance. Well, we are now going out, and I'm really happy with him :] I'm so happy that he is giving me a chance, and I'm not going to let him down. I've had a lot of good luck in finding new friends, and fixing problems with old ones that I've been fighting with. I'm getting along with my mother again, we were fighting a lot before, and we are now okay : ) I made a lucky necklace and it was giving me a lot of good luck, but then it's like all the luck ran out of it. I started getting bad luck and so I took it off and things got better :S it was really confusing, but it's an amazing necklace. :] My sister and I get along way better than we used to now. We used to be really extremely close and tell each other everything, then she got pregnant and we started fighting a lot. But now we are okay again. =] I've finally started talking to my former love about the past, and the mistakes that were made. I never finished having that conversation with him, but I plan to finish it in the future :]
Now to the bad :[, That guy that I'm currently with, he's in love with this girl that lives in chicago. There is no possible way that they can make it work, so they talk on MySpace.com, as friends. What bothers me is they still tell each other how much they love each other and wish they could see each other and stuff. I never say anything to him about it, because I don't want to start an arguement and I went into this relationship knowing he was in love with her. He's giving me a chance, I'm not going to screw it up. Finding new friends: I had an amazing best friend, and I don't know what happened between us, but we aren't best friends anymore. We talk every now and again, but I really miss her and I'd like it if we started being close again. Yes, my mother and I are getting along again, but my father and I are having a war against each other. I cannot stand him anymore. He's not the same daddy he used to be, and I know I'm not all that nice for saying this because from what I hear it's not his fault, he is messed up in the head and his medication makes him the way he is. But he gets very abusive sometimes, and it really scares me. I'm really getting sick of being around him, and I really just want to leave. When I was talking to my former love about the past, I had thoughts of him in my future :( I really want him to be in my future, as.. more than a friend. It makes me feel horrible for having feelings like that while having an amazing boyfriend. What does that make me? :[ I don't know, but that's all for now, I'll post more later.
It's better to cross the line and suffer the consequences than to stare at that line for the rest of your life wondering what awaits beyond it.