I am sorry that you had to leave that job, but it sounds like you weren't that happy there and I can't say that I blame you.
But it is too bad how some places form cliques. I could never handle that. I wish I could work a job but I have fibromyalgia along with depression and that prevents me. Though I do try to stay busy with the forum and other hobbies.
Where I live it is still really deep with snow. I can't wait until spring. The summers get hot and muggy but I can handle that better than the cold. Wish I could afford to move south but I can't. I own my own home and wouldn't want to make any changes that big.
I hope that you feel better. You sound like a very special person and I am happy that you posted. Come here any time, we always are ready to listen.
If I don't talk to you before hand, have a wonderful Easter.
Think about the gardening, have you ordered your seeds yet? I am sure you have gotten seed catalogs by now, I have. I like to look at them just to get that gardening feeling going. I have two greenhouses, of which I can't get into because of the snow and ice. I would like to get into them because I have my soil and screen in there. I have a hanging basket that I got last year at Walmarts. It has sweet potato vine, red mandavilla and blue bacopa in it. My bacopa has been hanging on for the first time through out the winter. If I could get to the soil, I could get some cuttings off of them and start some clones for summer. I feel like trying to dig out the greenhouse, but I know we need more thawing before I can get to it.
We are going to go to the grandchildren's tomorrow, they are suppose to have an Easter Egg hunt. My husband was watching the weather and it is only suppose to get to 19 tomorrow. I am so discusted with this weather. With the fibro, the cold really effects me, lots of pain. Especially if it is damp.
I sure hope that you feel better, keep posting when you need to. Or just to stop in and say hello. I don't know how many people will be here because of the holiday weekend, but I pop in every now and then.
I hope that you have a wonderful evening.
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Hi there Aurora,
Its is nice to hear from you again although the circumstances are unfortunate. I think it is fantastic that you do volunteer work... I think you have to be a special kind of person to give your time for free (Whether it is supporting children with learning disabilities or painting the town church). I also seem to remember you helped people on HW as well as having help yourself... so that makes you a pretty good person to me!
Thanks for all the replies. I am feeling better at times. I'm not sorry to have left my job just that I don't have enough people to talk to or interact with. I am looking for another part time job but hope I can find one for 8-10 hrs a week. I know if wouldn't be much money but it would help a little and I would get out more. My friends can be so great sometimes and other times so busy with their own families. I do have my 2 sons so that is a great thing for me. Only problem is they go away a lot on weekends to visit their grandparents. I do not like being alone in the house at night. It still really scares me. And if there is a thunderstrom I really get scared. I do have some great things to look forward to so I should concentrate on those. My boys got tickets for Jersey Boys for us as my Xmas gift and then we will go out for dinner. That is in May and I am really looking forward to the evening. Also, my younger son is getting engaged in the fall so I will have a wedding in my future. I adore his girl friend. I am going to help him pick out a ring for her. So I guess I have to realize that things aren't so bad - I just get lonely and have trouble when I have no one to talk to. Thanks Darren for your kind words. I try to live my life by being a good and kind person.
Hi Shy, Thanks for your reply. Yes I do have 2 dogs - both pretty old. One is 16 and is deaf and the other is 13 and quite a barker so they do make me feel a little safer. I think my fears stem from childhood when I was scared at night. My parents thought I was being silly for being scared and so did not take me seriously and did not comfort me. It's amazing how things from childhood can affect you as an adult. My parents always had their bedroom door locked at night and we were told never to disturb them. My father was a doctor so i guess he really needed his sleep. Still, I just never felt safe. Once when I was 15 and was home sick and my mom had to go to the store I was alone in the house and I just crouched in a corner of the stairs until she got back. I think my childhood experiences have a lot to do with why I have panic and anxiety attacks. Well, thanks for listening - it helps me to write about these things and get them out in the open. Any comments would be appreciated.