I'm getting the summertime blues and it's only just become spring!

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Aurora60
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   Posted 3/22/2008 3:24 PM (GMT -7)   
I haven't posted on this forum for a while as things have been going so well.  And I can't even say what exactly is wrong with me but I am feeling so down with no real reason to.  I just quit my part time job which I absolutely hated.  It was physically exhausting for me and my co-workers were very cliquiy and really never talked to me.  In the almost 5 months I was there no one every asked me anything about myself or tried to get to know me.  I was very friendly and tried to be a part of things but they had all been there a long time and knew each other well.  Also, my supervisor was always commenting on what a nice sweater or skirt or saying I wore the nicest clothes.  I think she was envious.  My clothes are just normal - I was wearing skirts, slack, sweaters - the usual.  She also gave me a very poor review and said I wasn't fast enough on the computer - that I needed to do things at lightening speed.  I have had lots of computer experience but I am older(62) and I did the best I could.  Well, it shouldn't matter to me anymore since I am gone.  Other things in my life are going well.  I do volunteer work and my younger son is going to get engaged in the fall.  I just do get very depressed in the summer and I guess I am thinking about it too much. I am almost afraid to look for another part time job as I am beginning to think I just can't handle it at my age and I know I am not that old but I just get so tired!  I am in good health, had a recent physical and everything is fine with  my health.  I just need a few words of encouragement to know I am an OK person and would really appreciate any replies.
thanks.  Aurora

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   Posted 3/22/2008 3:42 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Aurora,

I am sorry that you had to leave that job, but it sounds like you weren't that happy there and I can't say that I blame you.

But it is too bad how some places form cliques.  I could never handle that.  I wish I could work a job but I have fibromyalgia along with depression and that prevents me.  Though I do try to stay busy with the forum and other hobbies. 

Where I live it is still really deep with snow.  I can't wait until spring.  The summers get hot and muggy but I can handle that better than the cold.  Wish I could afford to move south but I can't.  I own my own home and wouldn't want to make any changes that big.

I hope that you feel better.  You sound like a very special person and I am happy that you posted.  Come here any time, we always are ready to listen.

If I don't talk to you before hand, have a wonderful Easter.

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Aurora60
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   Posted 3/22/2008 4:31 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for your reply, Karen.  It makes me feel better.  Despite the fact it is spring here we just had a huge snow storm so I know how you feel about the cold.  I try to keep busy with my hobbies - reading and needlepoint and soon gardening.  I just have to figure out a way to beat these blue feelings.

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   Posted 3/22/2008 4:46 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Aurora,

Think about the gardening, have you ordered your seeds yet?  I am sure you have gotten seed catalogs by now, I have.  I like to look at them just to get that gardening feeling going.  I have two greenhouses, of which I can't get into because of the snow and ice.  I would like to get into them because I have my soil and screen in there.  I have a hanging basket that I got last year at Walmarts.  It has sweet potato vine, red mandavilla and blue bacopa in it.  My bacopa has been hanging on for the first time through out the winter.  If I could get to the soil, I could get some cuttings off of them and start some clones for summer.  I feel like trying to dig out the greenhouse, but I know we need more thawing before I can get to it.

We are going to go to the grandchildren's tomorrow, they are suppose to have an Easter Egg hunt.  My husband was watching the weather and it is only suppose to get to 19 tomorrow.  I am so discusted with this weather.  With the fibro, the cold really effects me, lots of pain.  Especially if it is damp.

I sure hope that you feel better, keep posting when you need to.  Or just to stop in and say hello.  I don't know how many people will be here because of the holiday weekend, but I pop in every now and then.

I hope that you have a wonderful evening.

HUgs, Karen


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   Posted 3/22/2008 10:01 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Aurora

I am really sorry that you are feeling so down and dont really know why. I get that way most times and its frustrating. Unlike you tho I am tired of the winter and the darkness and look forward to spring and summer. I have a friend who told me that summer and light makes her feel down so I guess you are not alone.

Dont feel bad for leaving the job. You were not comfortable because of the cliques. It does get that way sometimes. I am only 47 and I feel tired most times. I just started a job and I find that I am so tired and look forward to the days off. I am in training for 4 weeks then I will only do 3 days per week and I am wishing the 4 weeks away.

The good news is that you are in good health. Do you have friends or close family? I find that one does not enjoy summer when one is alone. I get very lonely especially during this time as i dont have family and only a couple friends who are very busy with their own lives. In fact I lead a very boring life and I dont know if much would change even if I win the lottery.

All the best to you and I hope you feel better soon.

Dor
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   Posted 3/23/2008 7:12 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi there Aurora,

Its is nice to hear from you again although the circumstances are unfortunate. I think it is fantastic that you do volunteer work... I think you have to be a special kind of person to give your time for free (Whether it is supporting children with learning disabilities or painting the town church). I also seem to remember you helped people on HW as well as having help yourself... so that makes you a pretty good person to me!

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Aurora60
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   Posted 3/24/2008 7:54 PM (GMT -7)   

Thanks for all the replies.  I am feeling better at times.  I'm not sorry to have left my job just that I don't have enough people to talk to or interact with.  I am looking for another part time job but hope I can find one for 8-10 hrs a week.  I know if wouldn't be much money but it would help a little and I would get out more.  My friends can be so great sometimes and other times so busy with their own families.  I do have my 2 sons so that is a great thing for me.  Only problem is they go away a lot on weekends to visit their grandparents.  I do not like being alone in the house at night.  It still really scares me. And if there is a thunderstrom I really get scared.  I do have some great things to look forward to so I should concentrate on those.  My boys got tickets for Jersey Boys for us as my Xmas gift and then we will go out for dinner.  That is in May and I am really looking forward to the evening.  Also, my younger son is getting engaged in the fall so I will have a wedding in my future.  I adore his girl friend.  I am going to help him pick out a ring for her.  So I guess I have to realize that things aren't so bad - I just get lonely and have trouble when I have no one to talk to.  Thanks Darren for your kind words.  I try to live my life by being a good and kind person.

Aurora


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   Posted 3/25/2008 4:56 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Aurora

Alot of good things are going to happen soon. Just take it one day at a time..

Do you by chance have a dog? Was just thinking that maybe that will help ease your mind when you are alone..plus being able to save one from the humane society is a great feeling.
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Aurora60
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   Posted 3/25/2008 6:04 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Shy,  Thanks for your reply.  Yes I do have 2 dogs - both pretty old.  One is 16 and is deaf and the other is 13 and quite a barker so they do make me feel a little safer.  I think my fears stem from childhood when I was scared at night.  My parents thought I was being silly for being scared and so did not take me seriously and did not comfort me.  It's amazing how things from childhood can affect you as an adult.  My parents always had their bedroom door locked at night and we were told never to disturb them.  My father was a doctor so i guess he really needed his sleep. Still, I just never felt safe.  Once when I was 15 and was home sick and my mom had to go to the store I was alone in the house and I just crouched in a corner of the stairs until she got back.  I think my childhood experiences have a lot to do with why I have panic and anxiety attacks.  Well, thanks for listening - it helps me to write about these things and get them out in the open.  Any comments would be appreciated.

Aurora

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