really depressed, can't eat

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behindtheseeyes00987
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   Posted 3/30/2008 6:10 PM (GMT -7)   
lately ive been feeling like my life is out of control. all of a sudden, ive been obsessing about my figure. i cant eat anymore, and if i do eat a little something i throw it up. i feel so bad about myself. other people in my life make me feel bad unintentionally, and i feeling like not eating is my way out. i want to feel better about myself, and i find that in throwing up.
 
i know this isnt safe, and i want so badly to stop. i just want my normal appetite back and to just eat healthily and not have those worries. but i cant get it out of my mind. i dont know what to do.
ive brought this up to my therapist before but it relaly just started a little while ago so it hasnt been talked about much.
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   Posted 3/30/2008 6:33 PM (GMT -7)   
I know the feeling..but it is so important to eat. I just went through a similar episode and lost almost 15 pounds in 2 weeks (and I'm small already!) Try and eat small amounts more frequently and supplement with ensure or boost for your vitamins and minerals. And they really don't taste bad, they are pretty good! Keep your head up and know we are here for you.
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   Posted 3/30/2008 7:31 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi behindtheeseyes,

Debi is right, you do need to eat. I would reccommend talking to your therapist more about what is going on. I am sure that he/she could help you get food in your system and keep it there. I am sure that others will come along with some eating tips, but you really need to address this matter with your therapist or your doctor. This is very important to get under control as soon as possible.

I hope that you can feel better soon.
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   Posted 3/31/2008 4:27 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi eyes

Dealing with Anorexia myself I completely understand where you are coming from.
But, bad eating habits and depression do not mix.

Until you get into the doctor,try eating small meals throughout the day,even if you are just having cheese and crackers...anything that you find you can keep down.

Then make sure to let your therapist know,because I found that they have to be more careful on what meds they give us to make sure that your appetite is not decreased.
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   Posted 3/31/2008 7:34 AM (GMT -7)   

Wow. I havent told anyone yet, but I am dealing with the same thing. I havent been eating much lately. I eat some things that I know are good for me, I eat them in a small portion, but then I might eat a lot just because I am hungry, but I know I can just throw it up so it seems as if that is the way out. However, I know this isnt good. I have just been really obsessed with everything I eat. I see food and I am tempted, but I dont want to eat it. My mom stopped by McDonalds and I was with her, she wanted to eat in and my first thought was "oh gosh, I dont want to eat in because then I will have to eat." I am actually amazed that I am doing this, but I cant help it. It has just over-taken me. I was afraid to say anything because I have had alot of experience with things turning out to be a big problem for me, and I dont want this to grow into something else. I just dont want it to become a "habit", so to speak. I am not really sure what I should do. Normally I would wait and see what happens, but I have never really had good results from that.. but, what am I supposed to do since it hasnt become a "problem" yet.

I just dont really understand why I am having these feelings. I understand that I dont like my weight but I cant figure out why I would want to go to any extreme to make myself feel better. I really dont understand it, but I know it could potentially become a huge problem.

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behindtheseeyes00987
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   Posted 3/31/2008 8:39 PM (GMT -7)   
hey tennisdoc,
i totally understand. its scary how similar i feel.
 
today was the first day in a week or two that i actually ate. i forced myself to eat a small sandwhich and some iced tea. it was hard, because i was so tempted to throw it up afterwards but i kept telling myself that i cant do this anymore. so im working on it, though it is a struggle. i really understand what youre saying, so im here for you. together we can get better!
 
thanks to everyone for your input. im meeting with my therapist tomorrow, so ill see what she says. she already knows about this problem but its only been touched upon in meetings. i think tomorrow after i talk to her ill call my MD and tell him that these pills im on are decreasing my appetite. funny thing is-i read that youre supposed to get an increased appetite with these, it worked opposite for me. im kinda nervous, but i guess i need to just face that my health is important so i have to tell someone!
 
 
 
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   Posted 3/31/2008 9:33 PM (GMT -7)   
behindtheeyes, I am concerned whether your post-meal vomiting is intentional or unintentional (i.e., are you making yourself throw up by sticking your finger down your throat, etc.)?
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   Posted 4/1/2008 2:31 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi there BTE,

I too, am worried about the vomiting. Has it been going on for more than a couple of days? If so I would urge you to see your doctor straight away. If you cannot hold down solid food or liquids, your body will become weak very quickly.

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behindtheseeyes00987
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   Posted 4/1/2008 11:42 AM (GMT -7)   
ive been ok for a day or two so far...
it was intentional, i made myself throw up with my finger
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   Posted 4/1/2008 12:20 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi BTE,

I am happy that you are keeping food down. It isn't that we eat and gain weight, it is what we eat and how much. Try eating 4-6 times a day, small portions of healthy foods. You will keep your figure, I promise.

Keep up the good work,
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   Posted 4/2/2008 2:50 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi BTE,

I really think that you ought to see your doctor about this. Obviously something has caused this and, without treatment/therapy, it is possible it will come back again until vomiting becomes a habit. I am really worried about you. Remember we are always here.

Darren


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