I have a strange pathology, but am depressive in most qualities. I also have problems within the depressive bipolar spectrum, and psychotic features regarless of mood quality. I also have problems with anxiety and Complex PTSD. I have not found a way into remission - I have been sick for 18 years.
I have tried most meds and am unable to tolerate drugs impact my serotonin synapses. I am unresponsive to all anti-depressants except for a combo of Parnate and Wellbutrin. I also take Vyvanse and dexamphetamine for my depression. I cannot sleep without taking a combo of four medications. Ambien and Lunesta do nothing. I also take meds to prevent a stroke due to my meds. I am trying to find a way to control my anxiety, but most benzo's are like candy. I feel nothing regardless of how high the dose. Stimulants calm me down.
I have been in the hospital a lot. Some really bad ones. More recently I have only been in University Medical Hospitals. Mclean (at Harvard), Nothwestern, and Stanford. So I have tried many drugs at high doses. I metabolize drugs quickly, so I need multiple high dosing. I have had 4 groupings of ECT.
I am married for 15 years. I have two kids 8 and 16. I am good today - I have found my way to talk.
I am sorry quietpain, I had to edit your post due to rule #1 of forum rules.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 4/11/2008 7:51:27 PM (GMT-6)