Well things are better in terms of my motivation and focusing. I am able to focus better and class and get more done throughout the day with the wellbutrin. I am getting my liver enzymes checked next week to see if it was the wellbutrin causing it of if my autoimmune hepatitis is back. I'm nervous to get the blood work done.
The guy I met online who will be going to my school in the fall has been talking to me. But 2 days ago I was really lonely and left him about
5 AIM messages. I just wanted someone to talk to. I haven't been able to see a friend for so long..because of my parents. I get lonely in the house. I asked him yesterday if he got annoyed with me. He said he did kinda because not even his best friends leave him that many messages as I did that day. But he said he understands due to the situation I'm in with my parents and being bored in the house. I told him I was really sorry and it wouldn't happen again. I said now he probably thinks I'm crazy and won't want to meet me in school. And I said it probably ruined everything. He told me to relax and not worry and that he still wants to meet me. And he said was there anything there to ruin if we haven't even met in person? I said well I was just worried that I ruined the possibility of us ever being friends or something more. He told me to relax and calm down and just brush it off. He said the more I worry about
it and ask questions the worse it is. I said ok.
I really need to stop acting clingy when I'm lonely. I know being clingy turns guys off. Do you think there's still hope with this guy? I want to be his friend..and maybe something more down the road if we develop a good friendship first and realize there's chemistry there. I don't want to seem clingy though. I guess if I'm lonely I should just read or something to preoccupy myself with something else. I really don't want to make the same mistakes with guys in the past by being physical too early and then they pull away. I know this guy is different because he told me he doesn't have sex unless he's in a relationship. We've flirted a few times and talked dirty with each other a few times. I just don't want to ruin anything. Should I play hard to get and have him do most of the contacting? Do you think there's still hope or did I ruin everything? I want to believe him that he still wants to meet me. Let me know what you think! I need advice!
I don't want to seem desperate with guys anymore. I want them to want to hang out with me.. THEM to initiate everything.