a month ago I told a friend that I was thinking of harming myself. (I think I knew deep down that I needed to do something.) It was one of the hardest things I'd ever done. about
a week later things got out of control for me and I hit bottom. I had nothing left to hope for. I wanted it to be over. My friend became very concerned about
me after several emails back and forth. And while at the time I didn't think I'd do anything, he did. And he stepped in. (In hindsight, I probably would have done something stupid if he hadn't gotten involved.) He called me over and over and over till I finally answered. He gave me the choice of going with him to get help or he was calling the police. He would not give up on me no matter what. He then sat with me for 5 hours till I could be seen. (To see the look of concern on his face, for fear I do something, helped me realize that there are people who care about
me. Care enough that even if I hated them for what they did they would do it anyway.)
They wanted to admit me that night. I didn't want to stay. I was worried people would find out. We were able to come up with an alternate plan. I got to go home and to work like normal. But I had to report to my friend (kinda like parole.) And I had to make an appointment to be seen by a doctor at the clinic within 2 days.
They put me on Lexapro 5mg. It the last thing I'd ever thought I'd be doing. But I know that this is what I have to do. I'm not saying that everything is perfect now, because these things take time. But as time has passed I have begun to see just how many people care about
me and would have been deeply hurt.
I've now been on Lexapro 5mg for 3 weeks now and it hasn't really seemed to help my depression. I'm maybe a tiny bit better, but not really noticeable. (The suicidal thoughts are almost gone. Which is good) Went to the dr today and asked for my dose to be upped. I am now to take 10mg for the next 10 days then up it to 15mg if I don' t think that is working. My sleeping has been horrible for a while now and since starting the Lexapro I find that I only sleep a few hours at a time and wake up several times during the night. So the dr also added Trazodone 50mg at bedtime. I am to take 1/2 a tablet and see how it goes. If that doesn't work I'm to take the whole tablet.
Has anybody had any experience with these 2 drugs, especially the Trazodone? The side-effects scare me, and I have to watch for interactions with my other medications for asthma (Advair, Asmanex, Spiriva, Albuterol). The dr does know all the drugs I'm on because it has made it much harder to find an AD that won't cause problems with the asthma meds.
I've also run into a problem with being able to afford all my prescript
ions due to a change in my medical coverage. I still have Rx copays but they've gone up considerably. Has anyone gone from Lexapro to Celexa? I know most people go the other way, but Celexa would only be $4 while the Lexapro would be $60.
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Post Edited By Moderator (ShynSassy) : 4/29/2008 5:33:16 AM (GMT-6)