Hi Star, My grandmother passed away this last March. In cleaning and packing up her house my mother and I found many photo albums that she had labled to which grandchildren she wanted them to go to. In mine she had written a letter (I didnt get to see as my mom took it) saying that she hoped one day I would be able to look at some of the photos of my stepfather she put in there as he and that time was a part of my past. There were two albums my mom took all the photos of him out of but there was one she missed.
When I opened this up and saw the picture of the man who tormented me for 11 years I had a full blown panic attack. Looking at the picture perfect family smiling it was bizzare how normal we looked (my little brother and I) considering all the nasty secrets we had to keep.
I know a picture can't hurt me and yeah I even feel a bit foolish that I had that reaction but, it is my past and I have had to come to terms with it as best I can and go on. I sure dont have to have pictures around to remind me of someone who caused me so much pain.
I hope your able to find a way to live peacefully with your past.
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Post Edited (els) : 5/19/2008 5:55:05 PM (GMT-6)
My grandad passed away 3 (nearly 4) years ago and even though I have dealt with that in my own way, I look at a picture of him occasionally (usually when I come across a picture by surprise) and I get a feeling of depression. A yearning to go back in time to the time of the picture. But it is temporary... at most it lasts a couple of days. I guess this is whats happening to you at the moment. As others have said, pictures can stir up a mixture of emotions in people who have passed.