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buxtonman
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Date Joined Jun 2008
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   Posted 6/25/2008 10:40 PM (GMT -7)   
 Hi i am 31 i have sever depression doctors have tried all kinds of meds. they did not work.  i have had depression off and on for years. my dad used to put me down all the time. he thought that he was making a man out of me, but it has only hurt me in a big way. In 2001 i had a accident at work a 900+ steal i-beam fell on me. hurt my back really bad as i take 300 mg. of morphine a day so i can get through the day with less pain. three months after the accident  my large intestine burst. so i have a permanent ostiome. that really sucks. do to complications they took my left kidney too. i am lonely and my depression is getting worse. my hole life has changed. i get feel like i wont to be someone else. i dont know who guest not me! people say iam luck to be alive, but i dont think so. dont really wont to be the one to take my life but wish some one wood. or i wish i could come out of this funk and find that special girl. i dont make a lot of money so i moved back with my mom and dad and my dad is still a complete as hole always finding ways to put me down. at this rate i dont know how long i can keep this up.thanks for listening:) buxtonman`~`

Confusedli
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   Posted 6/26/2008 12:56 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey Buxtonman,

Wow your accident sounds scary, you must be really brave to have come through that!

Do you have any hobbies or anything that can get you out of the house more and away from your Dad? and also help you to meet new people at the same time? I get lonely too so I'm doing a language course, it's good fun and it helps me to get out of the house and be around people!

Have you tried any sort of counselling? Maybe that would help aswell?
 
 
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willow57
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   Posted 6/26/2008 4:14 AM (GMT -7)   
Mr. Buxtonman,
I am so sorry to hear of all your struggles. First off you came to the right place. The people that come to this forum can find so much good advice and geniune concern and compassion.
I myself, recently joined this forum because of my depression. You see, my husband is an Alcoholic and I can't tell you how much being here has helped me.

Please understand this. Your father doesn't know how to be anyone else but himself. You sound like you have so much compassion. I believe the Lord sent you back to his home for may reasons. First, because you needed help and next because he didn't want you to use your pain, both physical and mental, to turn out like dear old dad.

You are very lucky to be here telling your story, but there is a reason for that. Sometimes doctor's with pill bottles just can't always help. You should get yourself in therapy and God only know's with what you've been through you could probably use it. Then you should pick up your bible. Jesus is there listening, he's just waiting for you to ask for his help. I believe this with all my heart and that sir, is what has gotten me to you.

You never ever forget, you are already a good man. You have proven that by putting you out to us on this forum.

Try this, this is something I have learned very recently. Go to your dad and give him a pinch on the arm, ask him ' what do you feel like doing right now?' Let him respond. Then put your arms around him and just give him a meaningful hug, just say thank you dad for being here to help me. When you give a pinch, you get pinched, when you give a hug, that sir leaves no room for anything else. You and him may then come to a different place in your relationship.

Best of luck to you and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family..

Willow 57
Always look to your past to better your future


buxtonman
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   Posted 6/27/2008 3:03 AM (GMT 0)   
will Willow 57 that made me cry:( very sweet of you to offer up some kind words and wisdom! \you know i would try that with my dad but i feel it will be to uncomftorable. it feels very weird when he tries to do something decent. by being put down all the time and tolled that i wont amount to anything i get tripped out trying to make a connection with him. ... i hope you can understand that.
Its weird if i did do it the showing of love wont last very long so i dont know. thanks so much and i hope that you are treated with the respect we all deserve as people!
my thoughts are with you.

buxtonman`~`

getting by
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   Posted 6/26/2008 8:03 PM (GMT -7)   
I want you to know that we are here for you. But I also would like to offer you these numbers and websites to contact because it sounds like you could be in a bad way.

National suicide hotlines 800-273-8255 and 800-784-2344.

www.sprc.org

also hopeline 800-422-4673

Please talk to somebody.
Karen
  Moderator-Depression
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


buxtonman
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Date Joined Jun 2008
Total Posts : 7
   Posted 6/26/2008 8:13 PM (GMT -7)   
Confusedly hi,
i help my friend sometimes. i found out that i thought i had friends but most of them wont something from me like to boro money and not pay it back. that has happened to much. so i dont get out much, and even when i do my dad has something to say or yell at me for who knows what? i love my mom but she is afraid of dad so she does what ever he wants here to. when i was in the hospital she was there for me, but now not so much.
thanks for the comments,
buxtonman`~`
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