Hi Seeking, You have come to a good place on this forum. Everyone is very helpful and friendly. We often can't give advice if it is medical but maybe can help with family problems. You probably should see your PCP to find out about therapy - you may be depressed. I know how hard it is to be lonely as I have suffered from lonliness for a long time. I am getting better though and make a real effort to get out and do things and keep up with my friends. I have 2 grown sons so they are a big help. You may still have a family one day. Do you know the saying "life is what happens when you are making plans." I wonder if you are close to any of your nieces or nephews. Sometimes that can be a very rewarding relationship. Maybe you can take them on an outing. I also am a volunteer at my local senior center and I get a lot of satifaction from that work and the seniors are so great and appreciative. Maybe you could take a class in something that interests you. I guess what I am suggesting is try to get better by helping yourself. Do you have any hobbies? I know that some days just make one feel nothing will get better but with a little input you can find things to be happy about. Please keep posting and let everyone here know how you are doing. I wish you the best and will answer any of your posts. Try to take good care of yourself. You are worth it.
I am Kitt. I am so glad you found this wonderful forum. You will meet many kind and caring people here.
I am going to just toss out a couple of ideas for you...........have you every thought of joining the Big Brothers/Big Sisters program where they match you up with a child that can use the influence of a good role model as well as the attention you obviously would enjoy giving to a child?
Also I know in our state there are programs through the county social services where you take in a child for the weekend, maybe once a month to provide respite care for the parent or the primary care giver to provide the parent with some rest time. Most of these parent's are down on their luck and have no monies for hiring caregivers to come in to their homes.
Now, your weight problem.............many people here have weight issues especially if your on an antidepressant that is known to pack on the pounds. I was born overweight and all my life my Mom gave me a hard time about eating. She was a size 8. She would tell the relatives how hard it was to keep me from eating everything in sight. She would hide the cookies, I found them.................... Well needless to say this was not a self esteem building time for me..................so I know how you feel.
I have been on a diet all my life.
I hope you do make an appointment to see your PCP and please do not be afraid to talk to your Doc, they see people cry all the time..........I know this for a fact.
Again a warm welcome.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression *~*