I am Kitt. I am so glad you found this wonderful forum. You will meet many kind and caring people here.
I am going to just toss out a couple of ideas for you...........have you every thought of joining the Big Brothers/Big Sisters program where they match you up with a child that can use the influence of a good role model as well as the attention you obviously would enjoy giving to a child?
Also I know in our state there are programs through the county social services where you take in a child for the weekend, maybe once a month to provide respite care for the parent or the primary care giver to provide the parent with some rest time. Most of these parent's are down on their luck and have no monies for hiring caregivers to come in to their homes.
Now, your weight problem.............many people here have weight issues especially if your on an antidepressant that is known to pack on the pounds. I was born overweight and all my life my Mom gave me a hard time about eating. She was a size 8. She would tell the relatives how hard it was to keep me from eating everything in sight. She would hide the cookies, I found them.................... Well needless to say this was not a self esteem building time for me..................so I know how you feel.
I have been on a diet all my life.
I hope you do make an appointment to see your PCP and please do not be afraid to talk to your Doc, they see people cry all the time..........I know this for a fact.
Again a warm welcome.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression http://www.healingwell.com/donate *~* Not a mental health professional of any kindIt is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~