Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 7/21/2008 8:58:05 AM (GMT-6)
You have nothing to feel guilty about. You have a right to live where you would like to. I am happy that you are able to be with your mom especially since you will be leaving for school in a couple of months.
Once you get there it will most likely be a whole new exciting world. I don't think that you will have time to be depressed to tell you the truth. Unless you are suffering from some anxiety, then that might be something that you would want to talk to the doctor about. But you sound to me as if you will be able to handle this just fine.
I am very happy for you. I don't think you have anything to feel guilty about. That is just what we call stinking thinking on your brain's part. Put those thoughts out of your head and enjoy life with your mom and siblings. Try to love them all. Try not to get jealous, that is something else that you may have to try to get out of your head too. You will be missing them when you are away, so try to spend some quality time with them before you leave.
Also welcome to HealingWell. I am so happy that you have joined us. Feel free to chime in on any post and keep posting here.
I've never been to the doctors for anything like this, only to get tablets for migraines and stuff like that. To be honest I'm afraid of going to the doctors, what do I say to him? I just don't feel this is worth troubling a doctor with... Yet I desperately want to talk to somebody. Would he refer me to a counseller or something?
Tell me what you think
That's a good idea to write things down for the doctor, I might do that....
Thank you Karen, I will go and see him and see what he thinks... I'm terrified but I've wanted to do it for ages.
I'll keep you posted
Welcome to HealingWell. You have received some wonderful support and info from Karen.
I am sorry you are in this position right now and I know how lonely feels.
Please make that Doctors appointment and go to see the Doctor. Remember guilt is a wasted emotion so kick it to the curb...............you don't need guilt.
Again a warm welcome
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression *~*
I've finally managed to make this appointment, I haven't got to be there for another hour. But I feel terrible, incredibly nervous and I feel really sick... I'm really anxious about talking to him.... But I've done it now and there's no going back....
Well I went to the docs and I'm really glad I did. I've been given some perspective and he's basically given me permission to be selfish for once, I've always put other people before me and it's harming me at the moment. So even though it's not an immediate cure I can feel better already. I've already tried to adopt this way of thinking and not doing too badly, had a long chat with my Dad which was rewarding... Anyway I'll want to keep coming here to talk, I'm bound to still have my bad days but I'll try to stay high spirited. Thanks to your support Kitt and Karen :)
Although he's sure I am suffering depression he reckons given the circumstances it's definately short term and most of these emotions will evaporate upon going to University in a different environment. He said specifically... "to feel better you need to plan your escape" I've had a nightto think about it, it's great I feel like I'm allowed to be happy again, which is something I haven't felt in weeks.... It's really great...
He did say however that on a longterm basis that my I could needcounseling to raise the family issues I have but he doesn't reckon I will need this now anyway. He doesn't think I need pills either
So gonna try and have a good day today
Thank you Karen