Welcome to the forum.
You have been through a huge amount of stress and with a past history it is easy to start transferring your Father's death to your own sx. I am so sorry for your loss. You are in the grieving process too. Allow yourself to feel the loss and the fear and face it head on. If you need to, see your physician. There are many new meds available that may help you and therapy is a really good idea to help you through this time.
Grieve at your own pace, there is no time frame tied to how long it lasts. It is your pain and your loss.
God Bless you and stick with us. We are here for you.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression *~*
I just cannot seem to shake the feeling that something is very wrong with me. I am going to see my Dr. today, so hopefully he can give me some re-assurance and we can get on to some sort of program to try to turn the corner/start climbing out of this hole I feel like I'm in.
If just one symptom would get better, I'd feel so much better about life in general. But with things just staying the same or getting a little worse every day, there's not a whole lot of will to want to get better/invest in the future. I know that probably sounds stupid, but sometimes I just feel so hopeless.