Aurora, I'm so sorry that you're going through all this. I too suffered from depression, but with drug and talk therapy managed to get it under control.
I've never has asthma, but our SIL has it and like you has to use at least two puffers to get relief.
This news about your EKG findings could be serious, but probably is a glitch due to the asthma.
Please, don't worry so much about the unknown and speculate that you might not be able to attend your son's wedding in October 2009. That's still a long way away, and much could be corrected by then.
I suggest taking a friend to your cardiology app't. This is important because in your panicky state you may not be able to absorb what the doctor is saying. Also, I suggest asking your friend to make notes for you concerning what the doctor said.
I know it's hard, but really try to take one hour at a time, then one day at a time and focus only on that; after all, everything else is an unknown. When you have more information to work with, it should be easier on you.
Right now, be kind to yourself.
Did they tell you what had changed on your EKG. If it was critical you would be in the hospital so I am sure they just want to check out your cardiac status before okaying the surgery.
Stay in the moment and know we are here for you always. It will work out but I understand your fears.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression *~*
Thank you all for responding to my post. It is so reassuring to know I have friends on this forum who care about my well being. As far as the EKG goes I asked my PCP about the changes and she said it could mean a possible blockage or it could be nothing. It could be a change because of the way the technician placed the electrodes. So my dr. is being extra cautious as I do have risk factors such as cholesterol and high blood pressure although both are controlled by meds. In fact my cholesterol is 198 so not that high and under 200 is good but I am trying to get it lower. I will keep posting about any of my test results although won't see the cardiologist until Aug. 13. Again thank you for responding to me. It helps to make me feel better and more calm.]