Good Morning Howto,
I am so sorry you are down and I know from experience it is so easy to feel good and boom, there you are with the "stinkin thinkin" thoughts going around in your head.
I really practice staying in the moment. You will slip back into involuntarily thinking about the future/past. But the more time and effort you spend connecting with the moment the easier it gets reconnecting with it.
Focus on what’s right in front of you. Or around you. Or on you. Use your senses. Just look at what’s right in front of you right now. Listen to the sounds around you. Feel the fabric of your clothes and focus on how they feel. Feel the sunshine on your face. Believe in yourself. You will make it through.
I am here to support you,
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*
Hi How To, the others have given you some very good advice. Please see your dr. to rule out any physical problems. Depending on where you live you may have a family counseling service that works on a sliding scale so you won't have to pay much. It's worth looking into. The other thought I had was you mentioned you are 45. Is it possible you are in peri- menopause and that is causing your symptons. Peri- menopause can start as early as 10 yrs. before you go into real menopause. And most women have real menopause around 52 or 53. It is worth checking into with your dr. Do try to concentrate on what is happening now in your life and don't think too far into the future. That is something you have no control over right now and you may be surpised at how good your future can be. As my therapist tells me "don't invite trouble." She means don't worry about what will happen later in life. Some women have the best time in life when they are older. And you might be surprised at how great your kids can be. Often when they are older they are much more fun to be around as they are on their own and paying their own bills. Just concentrate on you and what you need to do to feel better. I would suggest going online to see what the symptons are for peri-menopause. Once you are well you will do much better. Keep posting - it is a good way to vent your feelings and there is always someone to reply and help. By the way my in-laws are 97 and 89 and living a very happy life.