One thing you are not is stupid and my heart goes out to you. I would ask that you try to stay in the moment for now and just do one day at a time. We are all here to help you and tomorrow when my brain is not so tired I will try to give you some decent advice.
For tonight I just wanted to say hello, and you have found a new family here at HealingWell that will stand beside you and help you through this difficult time.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*
I am glad you can come here and let it all out. There is something comforting about baring your soul to the members of Depression and still being able to be anonymous.
I feel for you as I know you are in a dark place but look up and see the light, it is there and you will overcome this depression. Life has much good in your future, you must believe. When your fears and depression have the best of you, it is easy to feel that things will not get any better. This is not true. There is much help available in today’s society and the best way to deal with your fears is to find effective ways to overcome them. You make and keep the appointment with the therapist or physician.
Keep on posting to us.
Rethink asking your ex to go to your appointment as you need to go and if she refuses to go with you that may trigger your depression and make you feel worse.
Go slow, very slow. Take tiny baby steps toward recovery and know we care.
Many gentle hugs to you