Post Edited (dancingrain) : 9/19/2008 12:39:06 PM (GMT-6)
Good to hear you want away from that site. Maybe you could check out the schedual for depression chat here & make new friends. I"m new here, can't type fast but i'd try to be a friend.
Hi Dancingrain, I agree with the others that you should stay away from that site, just block it out. Now also try as hard as you can to stay away and after a while things will ease up and you won't want to go there anymore. You are so lucky to have a husband who loves you and 3 children. They should be the main focus of your life right now. If you are feeling depressed you might want to look into some counseling. Having a neutral person to talk to can be very beneficial. Also, have you had a complete physical exam within the past year? It might be good to see your PCP and make sure you are healthy. Maybe your dr. can prescribe some meds. This forum is a great place to come to. You will make so many friends here and you will be surprised at how much people care about you and your problems. I try my best to offer suggestions that will help someone to feel better or improve their situation. Are your children in school? Do you have enough time to yourself where you can do an activity or hobby? I find that if I have something to do, like needlepoint is my hobby, I can occupy my time and feel better as I have accomplished something. I know you are hurting right now and all on this forum are here to comfort you. I know only too well what lonliness is. I have a terrrible time with feeling lonely and it is hard to overcome. But when I get that way I post on here and ususally there are replies that make me feel better. You can post anytime and I will always be glad to answer you. Take good care of yourself and let us know how you are doing.
Welcome to HealingWell and the Depression forum.
I do understand your problem as I had someone I chatted with frequently and it went way to far. I was addicted to talking to this person. It took me away from my worries and cares and I could pretend I was someone special to this person.
When this person wanted to meet, I knew things had gone way to far and I was dancing with danger.............stranger danger as well as realizing that I had become addicted to chatting. So I told this person good bye and have a good life. All the person said was, it was fun while it lasted. Just a game to play to the other person and in reality it was for me too.
Dependency on any substance often causes mood-altering side effects when the addicted user is separated from the substance on which he or she depends. I felt like I wanted to change my mind but I forced myself to erase all info on this person so that I could not retrieve it..............
Coming here to HealinWell was much more suited to me, it gives me a chance to meet people and to help many. I don't have to depend on one person showing up to chat with and I feel I am surround by the love and support of the membership.
I hope you can find this kind of peace but you will need time to get to a point where you can let go completely of the chat line as you were dependeent on it for your daily fix and a boost to your self esteem. You are grieving the loss of the connection you thought you had with this man.
Letting go is one of the hardest things we have to do in life.
Bless you and keep posting.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*