I am so sorry you went through an unthinkable situation growing up. It is frequently the children that get the short end of the straw in a divorce. You got more then your dose of pain from the behavior of the adults in your life.
Is there anyway you can go to counseling? You have a whole childhood of issues you need to deal with and then put them in the past.
Please know we care and keep posting. Kitt
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*