Hello Willow and I am glad you found us. It sounds like you have gone through many losses and I understand some of yourw well as I have experienced them.
I am a bit confused why you are not eligible for any medical assistance from your state as you are not insured by your step Father and they cannot claim you on their income taxes if you are paying them for living there.
I am also very concern about your feelings of not wanting to go on anymore. You are an important person and everyone of us is here to make the world a better place because we live and serve within it. This includes you.
I am posting these crisis numbers for you, please use them if you need to or call 911.
The US Suicide Hotline 1-800-784-2433 NDMDA Depression Hotline | Support Group. 800-826-3632 Suicide Prevention Services Crisis Hotline 800-784-2433 Suicide Prevention Services Depression Hotline 630-482-9696
Do you have a priest or minister you can talk with as you appear to be a woman of great faith. Also do you seee a therapist?
Please keep the faith and know you can come here and vent. We are thrilled to have you with us.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*
Welcome to the forum! You should make sure you keep posting here.. it helped me so much because i felt that nobody understood.. and the truth is nobody did .. or could.
Firstly if your parents are working and you are considered financially dependant on them because you cannot work. If you can prove your disability from a doctor you should be covered under one of your parents insurance. I know this because I once worked at a call centre for benefits medicar etc... talk to your parents, I am so sorry about your father. I know it is hard. But just remember-- he does not want to be the reason you are unhappy. Live for him.
I thought my life was over at one point and felt as though i was waiting to die. Don't listen to what others say, just do whatever you are capable of doing. that is it. I was a huge burden on others for along time.. lost my friends as well. But it took me two years to finally find a friend who is worth my love. It's a hard process huh
Do not be afraid to reach out and ask for help.
p.s. if you were injured at work, you should be able to press charges/get financial help if they did not train you the proper way to lift with your back. This is mandatory at hospitals. If they did not teach you this-- or you were forced to lift something you knew was too heavy you should contact that place of work and see what your options are.
Hope I helped at least a little.
Things will look up for you, keep praying and you will succeed. Believe in yourself, You WILL be ok, it's a learning process and once you've figured out how to set things straight your happiness will slowly come back to you.
I am sorry your running into dead ends. Have you gone to the low income housing department in your state. Ask for help from them in securing your own place. Don't give up, keep looking for some department to subsidise you.
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I have great hopes for you to win your battle with depression. Practice on staying in the moment and take it one step at a time.
If you are under to much stress and pressure you need to tell your parents and make arrangements to not be the errand person all the time.
Is there something you have always wanted to do just for you, a hobby?
Try to channel some of your energy into doing for you and do not let others dictate how you live you life.