Hey there Sweetie, having your dog put to sleep is a hard decision as I did this in October. I did not feel guilty as much as heartbroken. The dog was my best friend and helped me through so many battles with my depression that it was one of the hardest things to do but I did it for her. She was in pain.
I am sorry about your son's G-ma. That is hard and the best you can do is support your son and pray for his Grandmother.
As far as the so-called toxic friend..........she is not good for you and you would do well to kick her to the curb and just start to live life without her in it. She is not a good friend and feeling bad about it won't change her. Life without her will be less stressful.
Hugs to you dear lady and find the good stuff in your life today.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*
Thanks, Kitt for your reply. I know how hard it must have been for you to have your sweet dog put down. I too am heartbroken but I still do have feelings of guilt that I can't explain. This was the dog my Mom picked out when she came to live with us so it brings up sad memories. I know my poor Rusty is suffering so I know I am doing the right thing. It just hurts. We are saying many, many prayers for Grandma - no word yet today so I think she is hanging on. Even though she is 89 she is a strong woman so i'm hoping for the best. As far as my friend is concerned I know I should kick her to the curb. The worst thing that ever happened to her was her father died at age 95. Otherwise she lives such a rosey life. Or at least she pretends to. I think she may cover up things as a way of coping with any thing wrong that happens. And she has absolutely no empathy for anyone unless it is her own family. It just hurts to know someone I have been such a good friend with all these years has turned on me and treats me so poorly. Well, i've had it and she is slowly going to go out of my life. She probably won't even notice. I have to see my therapist soon and she knows about this problem and I think she can help me to see it more rationally and tell me how to handle her.
Thank you Doug for your kind reply. I am sorry you had to go through such a hard time with your dog. Pets are family members and that is why it is so difficult to part with them. I know I am doing the right thing for Rusty but I will miss him terrribly. Thank heavens I took lots of pictures of him. I do have another poodle - Ramone who is 13. I will have him for company. I have had a lot of dogs in my life and after Ramone I don't plan to get another one. I am close to retirement and don't know if I can have a dog at a retirement community but I think I have had enough heartbreak. It is so nice to know that you all are so supportive and caring.