Just after Christmas last year my body started to reject my medications and I started to have serious adverse effects so I had to go off them completely. I tried numerous different types and nothing worked. My doctor suggested I try St. johns wart, but that did not work either. My doctor told me to try and see how I did without any medication at all. For the first while I had withdrawl symptoms, than things seemed to level out. I still suffered from depression, but it was at a level I could control and monitor somewhat. The past 2 weeks I notice my symptoms returning and it’s not even winter. I worry that my mental health issues are getting worse. I have experienced many of these symptoms in the past, but they seem to be worse and coming more regularly. The other night I was so paranoid that certain people were out to get me that I blocked them on face book and anyone who might “help” them. I have started to become suspicious of people at work and friends talking about me. I was so worried that people in my home town were out to get me that I almost called off a trip that I had been excited for months about. My depression is starting up again. The degree depends on the day. Some days I’m fairly levelled out, other days I break down and cannot do anything but feel sorry for myself. I was always awkward in social situations; especially with woman, but recently I have started to become so bad that I can barely have a social conversation. Since the last medications I was on reacted so wrongly I worry that with this relapse I wont be able to function at work or socially. I find myself constantly thinking and fearing that I will end up alone. I know I could have been happy with my ex, but this disease ruined it for me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I would never act on these thoughts because I couldn’t bare to put my family through that and I don’t believe it giving up. I’m extremely tired of dealing with this bull crap…Does anyone have any suggestions on what has helped them with their mental illness other than medication?
I took one sentence out of your post per HW rules. Discussions of suicide or self-harm are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 9/21/2008 4:41:41 PM (GMT-6)
When your fears have the best of you, it is easy to feel that things will not get any better. This is not true. There is much help available in today’s society and the best way to deal with your fears is to find effective ways to overcome them. Instead of focusing on doom, stay in the moment. Give yourself breathing space. Consider what matters to you. Establish a few manageable goals, then take small steps toward achieving them. Don’t try to stop everything as once as you may be setting yourself up for failure.
Please know coming here is a wonderful and courageous step. You are voicing your fears so you know what they are.
Do seek out your physician to help you. We are all here supporting you and if you fall we will pick you up my friend.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*