I was 19 when i met this man , who was 20 year older then me.As he was already a family Friend it was not a difficult situation for me to be comfortable with him.Eventually we got so close to each other and fell in love.We got married 2 year later when I was 21 and he was 41 year old.He even had 2 boys 8 and 12 at that time, which was not a big deal for me as i was in love with him and always wanted him to have his children with him.
It's been 4 year that I'm married and have no child of mine own because of our financial condition and also sometime we had issue regarding our relationship.As a lot of times we use to fight a lot.
Now I have this feeling of having my own child and my husband is also okay about it but i have health issue which makes me feel very depress.
Now I've found out that he was cheating on me the whole time.He has been going on adult website for his sexual pleasure.i was aware of it but i always ignored it as he always said that those were just his wild fantasy and that it's nothing serious.
All these years he was fooling me that he love me and was doing on adult website looking for people for having discreet sexual relationship.
He was addicted to reading all kind of incest stories and watching naked pics of women all the time.
Recently he got involved with a couple you was ready to have a THREESOME sex with my husband.And my husband was very excited about the whole thing.
2 days back I found all the emails regarding this planning of meeting up.
After I have confronted him on this, he is saying that he is very guilty and is ready to repent. But somehow i don't want to believe him.He is very good in convincing people.
After all this had happened ,I don't want to have a child with him, as for the last 4 years , this man was not serious about having a child or future planning.
At this point of my life, I''m alone and helpless and i don't have anybody to advice me what to do.
I've even thought about giving him a DIVORCE but still not sure as that is not easy as well.
Somebody please advice me if YOU UNDERSTAND my situation what I'm going trough right now.
I NEED TO MAKE MY DECISION ASAP.
SHOULD I FORGIVE HIM AND GIVE ANOTHER CHANCE OR LEAVE HIM AS HE CAN REPEAT THAT AGAIN AND NEXT TIME HE WILL BE EXTRA CAREFUL??