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Again a warm welcome,Kitt
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*
I know I'm more fortunet than a lot of others, but, I'm in a dark place in my life... I reccently got approved for total disability for my back. It doesn't pay enough to live on, so, I try to work a little here and there. I'm a great guy and very lonely. I take pain meds from my dr. every month. Good news is I don't abuse them in general, but, have found myself self medicating at times to not deal with reality.
I would have to say the core of my depression, although it's a combination of things, is that I have been in love with this girl for 6 years now. We have lived together off and on but primarily as friends. Very frustrating. I told her how I feel and she replies month after month you never know what the future holds.
I take Cymbalta, my anti depressant now for 6 months but I have been in bed for 6 days at a time. Very lonely. I hope to get some friends here and advise as soon as possible, I'm deeply hurting!
I want to mention here that the small changes must come from inside you. You do not have the power to change anyone else (including your girl friend.)
You also need to look at every possible aspect of your relationship with your girlfriend and see if the good outweighs the bad, or if the bad outweighs the good. Sometimes your judgment is clouded when you only focus on the good or only on the bad. The bottom line is to do what you need to do to have a more fulfilling and happy life.
I get the feeling you are afraid to be alone and you are grasping at any time she will spend with you as a good thing and when she is not there you feel really depressed.
Remember only you can make you happy. Take care of you and keep posting.