Hello and welcome to HealingWell. We do have a thread for new members to do an introduction of themselves if you choose. I will be bringing it to the top in a bit.
I went to therapy and I frequently came home in tears in the beginning as I hated the idea that I was so weak I needed a therapist. I finally moved past that and after 9 months of therapy I was out on my own. I do have to see my P-doc once a month and that is where I may play head games as I do feel good when I am with her but I am a good actress and she will call me out on that. Sometimes when I leave her office I feel like she is not hearing me.
I have had Depression for 24 years and was well controlled on meds until my med failed me in 2005. I have been fighting the battle with Depression and anxiety ever since. I have come a long way since 2005 so know that you will have good days and not so good days.
Karen is correct, the meds may take up to 4-6 weeks for the full therapeutic dose to be reached.
Coming here was very brave of you. Stick with us and know we care.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*
Hi Karen and Kitt
Thanks for your support so far. Have been to the library today and got the number for a local self help group which meets weekly so I am going to go along at least for a bit as I am aware that I cannot just rely on my friends to deal with all this and need to get something back from people who have been there and done that. I've also started a private journal on my pc - password protected of course! and feel that at least I have put something down on paper. Was not so surprised to note that my feelings about where I am as a person now did not feature any positive adjectives at all - that's a big alarm when you see it in print. I knew it but when you see it there it brings it home. However, I did immediately put underneath what I would expect to see of me if I was 100% and that was quite a different read I can tell you. I've got some small steps to focus on for the next week - a long run on Monday for example, and then this self help group on Thursday so that will be two positives ticked off for the week which is more than there are at the moment.
I'll look for the introductions section and perhaps put something on there as background...