I was carousing around and stumble upon your post. I thought I would register and advise you on this matter since no one else had at the time I started this. Honey, first let me say I can relate a little bit. But I would like some more info on this situation. What is this man like? Do you know why he acted the way he acted? Did he have a job before all this happened? Is he trying to find work? What happened to his car? What would make him say "Devil Worshippers"? Was he abusive? Did he ever hurt the baby?
Well I'll go ahead and say a few things, and depending on your answers, some of the things I say may change!
How close were you two? If you both had a relationship where you could tell each other anything, you may want to try and contact him. Tell him whats going on inside. There is no need for you to "Crash and Burn", we all have our struggles and laments and its what makes us into the women we were meant to be! "sometimes and just think maybe I shoiuld just go back to the man I left and let my life go from there" This line caught my attention. If you think of things like this, then you must still have some feelings for this man. And despite what he appears to have done by taking control of the situation, I bet he still thinks about
you too. Maybe Divorce is the right answer, maybe its not. If it were me, and it was me at one time, I'd take a step back and think about
what was going. I'd think about
what was best for my son, like I did. I'd think about
if I could still accomplish the things I was striving to do if I were in a relationship with this man again, like I did. I let go of my bad memories and thought about
all the fantastic ones we had while we were growing with each other. When I was starting to go through my divorce I felt like I was suffering like you did. I did all the things I mentioned above and I called my hubby one day. At first he didn't want to talk much and was very short on the phone, but as soon as I said I wanted to talk he
opened up. As it were, I was just in time too lol. He was going to go out with some friends and who knows whom he could have met out in town! I got back with my hubby and we've been enjoying out "Happily Ever After" for many, many years now. That was the choice I mad. He could be a real butt sometimes, a little jealous and get angry at silly things, but that's all men! lol But Dismaril, all situations are different. Sometimes women need to leave their hubby because of alcohol, drugs, or violence so they can protect themselves and their children. Other times we women feel like we need to escape, have some time to ourselves and enjoy a good old fashioned break. I felt trapped once I got married and it scared me to death! So I made the decision to leave after a silly argument that started up over napkins. Yes, napkins. After we were seperated I thought about
stuff everyday, and finally made the call. As I said before, it was the best decision I ever made.
I won't be able to tell you what you should do if it were me. That is your decision to make. I can try to point you in the right direction as best I can. I hope I have helped in some way.
I'll be around if you want to talk more,