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Scattered13
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Date Joined Sep 2007
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   Posted 10/6/2008 1:39 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi,
 
This is my intro: some of you may know me from the Panic and Arthritis boards, although I must admit I'm not a regular poster. I do read frequently though.
 
I'm here because over the past week I have been feeling very low and very flat. I'm currently on 20mg citalopram (brand name: Celexa) for depression and panic disorder. It had kicked in really well - I was sleeping again and feeling much more content. I was able to go out much more easily and my panic attacks had lessened. This last week has felt like things are going backwards: I'm having nightmares and recurring dreams again; I'm waking up many times throughout the night and it is difficult to fall back to sleep; I feel jittery and restless and my levels of irritability have gone up. I'm in a counselling program and I see my therapist weekly. As I've just returned to university I have a new therapist here but over the last three weeks have found someone who I feel comfortable with. My GP here and at home is very good and both know my full psychiatric history.
 
A little history: My depression was diagnosed when I was 14 as clinical depression with psychotic features. I was put on anti-depressants and spent nearly 2 years in CBT. I had my next major episode when I was 16, and another at 18. I had counselling for both of these. I am now 21 and, apart from a short episode just after I was diagnosed with RA, had been well for 2 years, perhaps the best I have ever been. My anxiety was treated as part of the depression and wasn't diagnosed on its own until this year. Thankfully I haven't had a full psychotic episode since I was 15.
 
I'm not sure where I'm going with this: I think I was looking for somewhere to admit how I'm feeling. I'm not good at things like that.
 
If you have any advice, or tips on how to fall and stay asleep (!), it would be most welcome.
 
Thank you.
Dx: Panic Disorder, Psychotic Depression, Rheumatoid Arthritis
 
Rx: Humira, Methotrexate, Plaquenil, Prednisolone, Codeine, Diclofenic Sodium, Folic Acid, Propranolol, Citalopram


stkitt
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   Posted 10/6/2008 2:38 PM (GMT -7)   

Scattered13,

Hey there, I am sorry you have hit a bump in the road.  I know it is hard to express our feelings as we don't know how to sort the feelings out as they come in waves.

Have you thought of picking up your CBT again.  Did that help you?

Also please do talk with your Doctor and try to explain how you feel. You are scared and that is normal when our mind starts pushing us toward the dark. 

Please fight back and try journaling or exercise as they are good ways to reduce your stress.

Take care
Kitt


 

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getting by
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   Posted 10/6/2008 2:43 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome to the depression forum Scattered,

Do you think that you might need a medication adjustment? Maybe you need a higher dose. If it helped you in the beginning, I would ask the doctor about it.

You have been through a lot with your depression. It is hard being depressed when you are a teenager. It gets hard distinguishing the feelings. I hope that you can find what is right for you so that you can start to enjoy your life.

Sincerely
Karen
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


Scattered13
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Date Joined Sep 2007
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   Posted 10/7/2008 2:58 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for your responses Kitt and Karen.

Kitt - The CBT helped me loads. I credit that with keeping me reletively well for so long. My current counsellor is going to work on some CBT with me but feels that it hasn't been working because I have unresolved feelings which are preventing me from applying it properly. We are going to use our sessions to discuss those feelings and I have 'homework' (in true CBT style!) from a book called 'Overcoming Anxiety' to complete.

Karen - I'm going to see if this is just a blip or if it lasts longer. If I still feel like this in a week and a half I'll go back to my GP.
Dx: Panic Disorder, Psychotic Depression, Rheumatoid Arthritis
 
Rx: Humira, Methotrexate, Plaquenil, Prednisolone, Codeine, Diclofenic Sodium, Folic Acid, Propranolol, Citalopram


stkitt
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Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 10/7/2008 7:31 AM (GMT -7)   

Scattered,

Good Morning.  Unresolved issues are really tough to get over.  I am caught in some of my own but usually it is due to my own "stinkin thinkin"

I think you have a good plan with your counselor and I hope it helps.  Be good to yourself.

Keep talking to us.

Hugs
Kitt


 

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