Hello...Um.. I'm really only sixteen years old and I don't think I'm really sure if I have deppression or not. I recently moved to a new High School but I have no interest in making friends or talking with people yet when I see friends together laughing it makes me feel really sad. When I see my classmates talking with each other I can't help but just stare at them and I find that I can't say anything. Which is weird because I was so outgoing that people thought I was too open. Heh...so...I have a small sendimental problem which keeps me clinging to past friends, objects, pictures, tickets and even something as insignificant as a broken feather. It's just, its so sad when I think of throwing something away. I feel like its part of my life and I need to keep it. Like the feather my friend picked off on the ground at a concert. I just couldn't throw it away.
It's more than a fact that I have no interest in the classes I used to love last year. Even Art Class for me is seemingly dull. I kind of just find myself not concentrating without even knowing that I was drifting off. I tried really hard to concentrate during an essay today but it's like nothing's there. And my normally B grades are now Cs even Ds. And honestly, the first time I learned that fact I was indifferent and shrugged it off. I keep thinking as long as I make it through this day then I'll be fine. But, of course, nothing changes.
I'm not normally like this. I'm very sarcastic, funny and really carefree. Well, I was. Now I can barely even answer questions. I used to kill myself trying to get my hand highest so I could read in class because I was a very smooth reader. But I have a huge stuttering problem right now and my words get slurred together.
I would really like some help, I don't know what happened or what started this.