Im really really fed up right now. ive just joined this site to see if i can get some help as most of my friends are either to narrow minded to give the smallest crap about
my problems or i havnt asked them because of confidence issues.
Anyway heres whats happening, ill try and explain the whole thing in order of occurrence.
I then started college which were probablly the best years of my life, 2 years studying music technology. im in a band at this point we were probablly playing maybe one to two gigs every week which was good. i also had what seemed like the perfect girlfriend, i loved and still do love every single little thing about
her. shes perfect (even if i didnt realize quite how much i loved her until afterwards) although she knew i loved her alot.
towards the end of the relationship i was getting very protective often being upset when she met up with certain people, i had a fear of loosing her to just about
any guy. iit seemed like i was loosing a lot of my friends to university etc and it really brought me down.
current day: My girlfriend has left me, we still want to be friends but whenever we meet up i find myself being very upset in the evening even if we had a good day. i end up crying a lot, getting very anxious and cant stop thinking about
memories and why were not together, its frustrating because she tells me shes still feels the same way as i do about
her but she wants freedom from a long term relationship. i can never take my mind of her as i have nothing to do with myself. my band are probablly now touring 4-5 solid months of the year in 2 week chunks etc. which doesnt make time for another job. so i just sit in my room all the time doing nothing getting really down about
the situation im in. ive also started taking various narcotics, i do this because they temporarily stop me feeling so bad. also i get no fulfillment out of anything im doing these days. even playing with my bands hardly gives me a buzz anymore.
im not sure whether to try anti depressants, i dont know if theyll help or be any good for me...one of my friends got much worse after taking them. i think i do need them to help me..as i cant deal with this situation for much longer..
i just want some help or any suggestions to help any of my problems as im at a extreme low right now and i have no idea what to do with myself.. Edit: I am sorry but you have broken just about every rule in rule # 1: 1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence.
(ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm). Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.
Post Edited (Adam_thc) : 10/16/2008 3:30:49 PM (GMT-6)