I feel you are having issues dealing with obsessive thoughts of Death and Dying
I would encourage you to seek out professional help from a therapist or Psychiatrist who specializes in Obsessive thoughts disorder. It sounds like the pain and suffering you are having from these obsessive thoughts are difficult for you to explain. This is not an uncommon condition and is very treatable. You can feel safe and happy with the proper care. Let the people who love you know you want their support, even though they may not understand what you are going through.
IMHO, it seems to me like you need a work up to identify what is causing the problem. Be prepared to tell your physician your family history, medications your on, the onset, and duration of the fears. A professional can help you face your fears and teach you ways to stop the obsessive thoughts.
When you go to the Doctors, keep in mind your there to find out what is wrong and the Doctor is working for you and with you. Take deep breaths and write down your notes about how you have been feeling and questions you have.
I was diagnosised with skin cancer last spring, 4 of 5 biospies came back positive. I just had to deal with it as you cannot run away. My husband was diagnosised with Prostate Cancer, He had surgery on 8/27 this year. We have to accept it and just believe the Doctor that all the cancer is gone.
My sister was diagnosised with Ovarian Cancer on 8/13 and we flew her into the University of MN hospital. She went into ICU that night on a ventilator. She is a fighter. She is receiving chemo now and may be ready for surgery in November. She is so sure she will make it that I believe her.
She is 500 miles away from home and her daughter has been here with her for over 60 days now. I am up there with her as much as I can be and always if she takes a turn for the worse. Her daughter is a newly wed on 8/1 and has spent all this time away from her husband and her daughter.
My best advice I can give you Daily is to reach out to others and let them help you. You can get past your fears.
I am glad you find peace in your religious believes. Take care and know you now have a place to come to and talk.
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Hello and Welcome to HealingWell and your encouraging post to Daily.
We are glad to have both of you join us. We do have a new members forum which I will pop to the top for all newbies and returnie.............. We have many members here who will be glad to lend an ear, offer information, and provide support for people who need it.
Again Welcome aboard.