Hi Luvleigh, I was wondering if you work outside the home to keep busy. If not, would a part time job interest you? It would occupy your time and you would have a little extra spending money. If you don't want to work how about finding a volunteer job? There are so many places that need help. Senior centers always welcome volunteers. Or how about your library or a school? There are many volunteer opportunities out there that would welcome you and then you would feel good about yourself. Also, as the other post you received said, maybe there is a better way of communicating your feelings. You might start with someone in your family that you are the most close to. Another idea is if you have a hobby or would like to take up doing something new. I started needlepointing again after about 20 years and I am makeing beautiful things and they make great gifts. The other thing to consider is if you thing you might be depressed. You should probably see your dr. and get a complete physical. Then ask if you might need an anti depressant med. There are so many out there and some are so helpful. And don't give up if one doesn't work as there are so many that might. It took me 6 tries to find the right med and it has helped me tremendously. You don't mention if you have children. If you do they must keep you busy. I am not trying to be nosey, just want to offer you some suggestions to help you through your days. Do you belong to a church? Churches always have groups to join and you could make new friends. Other ideas for volunteering are a soup kitchen or hospice. I hope I have given you some things to consider and do try to talk to a family member if possible. You may be surprised that they will be understanding if you can put your thoughts into a way that doesn't sound attacking or too angry. Please keep posting. It gets your feelings out and there is always someone here to answer you. I will answer you if you post. Try to take good care of yourself. You have found a very caring place to come and talk to nice people.
I am so sorry your husband is insensitive. The comments about your brother were inappropirate and those kinds of comments I will not take from anyone anymore. Even if someone else excuses the person and says "Oh, that is just the way he is." I will just get up and join another group and if I want to talk with the insensitive person, we will talk alone.
I went to nurse's training with 4 children at home. My youngest was 7 at the time. My hubby sold his prized possession to help pay my tuition. It was tough for all but when you have a good support person it makes life much better.
Perhaps you could start out working as an NA and save some money then move on up the ladder. You could take you general ed credits at a junior college, but make sure they will transfer Nursing School you choose.
I know you can take online college courses but your would have to research exactly how it works.
You are a good person and you deserve respect.
Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*