Dear Erik, I am so sorry to read that you are feeling very down. You have been doing so well lately, what do you think happened to change your good frame of mind? I think what Karen has told you is very true. You are never burdening any of us. Having gotten to know you I truly feel you are such a good friend. I know you are in the medical field and that is a tremendous undertaking. Is there a way to take fewer classes? Are your classes mostly lectures with lots of students? As Karen asked are you able to take a leave of absence and come back to your studies? These are all things to consider. I know you do not want to disappoint your parents. Can you talk to them about how you feel? By taking the couse of study you are in you must have done so with a specific goal in mind. Are your goals still the same? If so, then maybe it is best to keep on studying. Maybe you should take some time off from the piano lessons. You sound like you are overloaded. Do you have a roomate? And if you do can you talk to that person or other friends from school who are in the same field? How many years do you have left and what exactly are you studying to be? Are you going to be a medical dr.? Sorry for asking so many questions but I am trying to find out if there are any suggestions I can give you to get you through a difficult time right now. I know you went to Rwanda this summer and you were very pleased with that project. Please post when you can and lets try to work through this time. Have you got any vacation coming up from school? That would give you a chance to rest and regroup your thoughts. Hope I haven't bogged you down with too many questions. Take good care of yourself and I will look for your posts. Please know I want very much to be of support.
I am glad you got up and put it down in words how you felt. That was honest and brave of you. Please do not put more pressure on yourself. It is OK to change your mind. I sense you are trying to be all things at one time and you will not accept any weakness on your side.
Lower you standard a bit, skip something once in awhile and just do for you, something fun. You are special but just try to stay in the moment and let go of the what if's or whys.
Always feel comfortable sharing with us. We support you.
Finish every day and be done with it.You have done what you could.Some blunders and absurditiesno doubt have crept in;forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day;begin it well and serenelyand with too high a spiritto be cumbered withyour old nonsense.
This day is all that isgood and fair.It is too dear,with its hopes and invitations,to waste a moment on yesterdays.
Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*