I really dont have good feelingabout my therapy. The only person in the world that I have trusted is my counselor/therapist. And now i've lost trust in them too. I feel so empty, so hopeless. Its actually almost indescribable how I feel about life right now. I've never been so confused before.
I just feel like my therapist gives me a hard time sometimes, and a lot of time I cant be completely honest in therapy because I'm too scared. I really just don't think that I'm going to change. I'm always going to be depressed and anxious and sad, it will never go away. I feel like it's a waste. I can't change myself, and no one else can. SO what am i to do?
I also feel like a lot of time my therapist thinks that i'm just making excuses for things which it may sounds that way, but i'm really honestly not. i have a past with lieing, so even when im telling someone the truth it sound slike im lieing, because i just fear that they wont believe me that im telling the truth. HOw do you gain trust back in someone? cause i feel ocmpletely alone now.
"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars."