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carbonbagofwater
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   Posted 12/10/2008 8:23 AM (GMT -7)   
Recently I had an ex move away for good, we were living together broken apart. I guess this is a good thing. I am taking medication for anxiety and panic issues. I also let someone stay at my place for a bit here and there as a casual acquaintance- this person committed identity theft against me, and in the process tried to get 9000 dollars off my credit card, and charged his cell phone to the same card. I also discovered he charged nearly 1200 to another card. I ad to place him under citizens arrest and when the cops show up, the arrested him on four warrants, I found out he was on probation. It was rather traumatic. I don't like my job, and I really feel entitled to some mental health time- my benefits suck. So i just took a nice dose of xanax this morning and am trying to get through the day.

I used to be an attractive slim person, but I have been eating a lot and gaining weight cause of all the stress-- this is not making me happy. Ive had suicidal tendancies for a long time, but have never acted on them. But lately I am just really starting to look around at my life and starting to think--- seriously why bother.

I danno I guess thats it for now.

getting by
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   Posted 12/10/2008 9:12 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi CBW,

First of all, welcome to healingwell. I am glad that you have become a member. You will find that everybody here is kind and compassionate and it does help to write things down.

I am sorry that you are so down today. I hope that you start to feel better soon.

Do you exercise? Walking is good too. It takes your mind off of things and in the meantime you are losing weight. So I would recommend trying that at first and then maybe get into some kind of exercise plan.

Just don't act upon your thoughts. I know that you want to live and you will have a good life. This is a hard time of year right now and everybody seems to be depressed, so join the crowd. But we try to talk to eachother and bring ourselves above the depression cycle. You can do that too. Just know that all of us care.

I see that you take xanax, so you must have a doctor. Let them know that you are feeling bad. Maybe he can do something to help you feel better, like adjust your medications.

Please keep posting, we are here for you.

Hugs, Karen
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


Hibee
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   Posted 12/10/2008 10:26 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi

Welcome to HW this is a good forum with lots of people who can relate to what you are going through. Sorry to hear you are feeling down today it sounds as if you have had a rough time recently and i hope you start to feel better soon.

As Karen says know that you have a good life ahead of you and that members here understand and can offer support, i find it really does help me to come onto the HW forums and read the posts and start my own posts and i always get positive feedback which does help. I agree with Karen exercise is a good way to lift your mood i have also had some cognative therapy which i found really helped me as i was able to talk to someone face to face about the issues i was having this might be something you could consider? also HW has helped me loads so keep posting to tell us how you are getting on we do care.

I notice that you say you are having anxiety and that you take xanax there is an other forum for anxiety which i spend a lot off time in and find that there is great members in that forum as well check it out.

I really hope that your mood starts to get better soon and if you need to talk we are here to listen my thoughts are with you.

Take Care

Ben

stkitt
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   Posted 12/10/2008 10:27 AM (GMT -7)   

carbonbagofwater

Welcome to HealingWell and the Depression Forum.

I know you said you are on meds for antianxiety and you mentioned you took a "nice" dose of Xanax this morning.  I hope it was within the range your physician ordered.

Looks like you have had a rough time and I feel you would do well to see a therapist and please do  tell the whole truth about your feelings.  Feeling that life is worthless is putting you in the danger zone from the words you posted.

There is always good in the world.  This may be your chance to make a fresh start.  You are a very worthy person.  I am sorry you got hit by a identity theft too.  That has to make you feel very vunerable.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You are worth much more.

Remember:

Yesterday is gone forever, tomorrow is not yet here and Today is really all we ever have. We may have the memories of yesterday but it is over and so we do not need to continue to live in it. Well tomorrow is not here so it might be nice to set goals for tomorrow, or dream of what we would like it to be, but again it is not here yet so we can not live in it until it gets here. So we can only live in the here and now of Today. What a wonderful gift.

Please call 911 if you feel you may harm yourself.

Take care and keep talking to us.

Kitt


 


 

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parent2000
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   Posted 12/10/2008 11:22 AM (GMT -7)   
cry  Hello I am new to this site and I was just looking for somebody to listen to me because I hurt my family by being like this.  I am a single parent with a beautiful 8 year little girl that is my life and the reason I feel like I live. I am overwhelmed at all times im good at hiding from everyone besides my family they hurt to because they have to watch me die on the inside.  I believe God has a master plan for my life because he is my creatorbut life is so hard.  In the last year I have had two surgeries, had to leave work constantly because I couldnt stop crying, lost my job after 10 and a half years, got into a terrible relationship where I grew to love this person alot and they distance there self from me for unexplanable reasons, and before that I was with my childs father who not only physically abused me but verbally too.  I think all of these things played apart in what I have become today a person who cries alot, a person who trusts no one, a person who wishes not to go or be around others, a person who is also totally disgusted with myself.  I dont like this person and I feel like im all alone.  

getting by
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   Posted 12/10/2008 2:53 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Parent,

These are all signs of depression. Have a talk with your doctor about getting on some medication and counseling. I know that you would benefit from both.

Keep posting as we are here for you.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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