Xmas is over for another year here in australia- i had a good, relaxed day with a small family dinner, so no stress. just physical pain from Fibro flare up, and alot of sadness at having yet another xmas without loved ones who died too soon.
I hope you all have an amazing day- and an awesome new year to come-
Good Morning Karen and family,
I am doing fine and I have kept my expectations attainable so I will not be set up for the old anxiety or Depression to creep in.
We are going to my daughters today and our Christmas Eve was lovely. I wish al of our HW Family the best holiday ever and my prayers are offered for all of you.
Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*
My deepest sympathy at the loss of your husband. I hope that this year when you are celebrating Christmas you bring his memories right along with you and know he would want your to be happy.
Bless you dear lady.
I have had a so so day, Started out this AM with a big fight with my sons. I won't elaborate too ridiculous. We have patched it up, and opened gifts. Then went to the cemetery whenre all my family is buried and placed wreaths. That helped pick up the day. My roast is in the oven right now so we will be eating soon. This has been a sad Xmas. Karen, I thought I would always remarry. I have been divorced for 25 yrs. Dated a lot and had one very serious relationship. Everyone said oh don't worry - you will remarry, but I didn't. They said I was so attractive and sweet any man would want me. Well, I used to be attractive - size 6 and beautiful auburn hair. But no man wanted me since I had small children. And I have been alone and lonely. At my age it would be nice to have a man but the only ones that look at me are in their 80's. Well, enough of the pity pot, the day is almost over and hopefully things will get better with my sons. I hope you all had a Merry Christmas and I thank the Lord for all my friends here.
Karen, thank you so much for your kind words. I am feeling better now and I think my son has forgiven me, not forgotten but at least willing to forigive even though he started the argument. I am just really stressed out and on edge because my finances are in such bad shape and I am trying to conserve every dollar I have but I owe every dr. around here and am on payment plans as I just can't afford to pay it all off. The amount I owe the hospital is going to take me almost two years to pay off. They gave me that much of a break but said I don't qualify for any discounts since I own a home. But the only income I have right now is SSI and because I took it early I don't get as much. I also have a lot of credit card debt that was unavoidable because of my finances. I am going to get acouselor to help me manage this or I will be out on the street. And owning a home doesn't mean you have a lot. It's not as if I can sell the house, or even get a loan against it. So that is where my worries are and the outlook for 2009 is pretty grim. I am just going to do the best I can and see how I can get these bills paid off. I am trying to get a job but no one is hiring and I was a high up manager for 20 yrs. so I have lots of work experience but I can't get hired. Well, I don't want to turn this into a boring short story but that is why I am so down right now. Thanks always for your kindness and encouragement.