You are not alone. Never. Everyone here on the forum is with you, and you might not believe me, but I think a lot of people in your neighbourhood are too. Taryn, you say you don't want to feel the way you feel now any more. Maybe you can use that thought to provoke change. At the moment, the world is changing, and now is the time for you to change as well.
Are there things you used to enjoy, no matter how young you were? Please write them all down for yourself, and maybe you will find something that still make you laugh, or just put a tiny little smile on your face. Try to look for the good things as well. I don't say you should ignore the bad, but seeing only the bad isn't helping, and it isn't real. Joy can be found in so many places, like a winters sun on your face, a little kid cycling down the street, the first flowers popping up.
We are here for you to talk and support, so "use" us whenever you feel like it
Shine on ya crazy diamond!
Acceptance is the key
The World is but a reflection. Smile, and it will smile back.Try to keep smiling! :)