I had two tough days on the A & P Board and was not ignoring you. I am very sensitive too and I let some words on the A & P board bring me down a bit tonight so here I am at almost 1:00 AM in the morning trying to catch up.
I am sorry your son is insensitive to your needs but I have found out the hard way that in order to be happy I have to take care of me and quit worrying about my kids really caring what is going on with me. They are so social and busy that if I am lucky I will get a cell phone call from my daughter while she is driving to an event and she want me to do something for her.
I went out and got a job, casual, to keep myself from feeling alone and useless. My kids are fine without me, my hubby is busy all the time and I have no "girlfriends" to hang out with or go to lunch with. Would I move to a retirement community.................heck yes in a New York minute and I would make sure it had a big great room so if my kids did want to come and visit I would have the room.
So sweetie, you take the bull by the horns and do what you feel will make you happy. You have been lonely to long.
Again I am so sorry I just got to this now, forgive me.