I had an apathetic Pdoc in my teen years who totally doped and dosed me up and ignored my pleas for help- he made me be a zombie, walked around in a fog, with full body tremors..
My best advice is to find another Pdoc- can you get a referral to someone else who might take your feelings into consideration?
Hang in there,
Good Morning and Welcome to HealingWell. I am Kitt. I have two friend with Borderline Personality Disorder and I know how much they go through. For those not familiar with this disorder:
Borderline personality disorder is a disturbance of certain brain functions that causes four types of behavioral disturbances:1. poorly regulated and excessive emotional responses; 2. harmful impulsive actions; 3. distorted perceptions and impaired reasoning; and 4. markedly disturbed relationships. SYMPTOMS1. Excessive, unstable and poorly regulated emotional responses.2. Impulsive behaviors that are harmful to you or to others.3. You may have an inaccurate view of yourself and others, and experience a high level of suspiciousness and other misperceptions. 4. Finally, you may experience tumultuous and very unstable relationships. TREATMENTS There are six key elements of care that directly bear on the effectiveness of the treatment you receive for borderline disorder. These include your level of commitment to treatment, locating a skilled primary clinician, determining the most appropriate level of care for you, evaluating your need for medication, and selecting the type of psychotherapy and support group that will be most effective for you.Medications play three very important roles in the treatment of most patients with borderline disorder. They are effective in reducing the four major groups of symptoms of the disorder. They thereby enhance the rate and quality of improvement derived from psychotherapy. Finally, medications are effective in treating other emotional disorders that frequently are associated with borderline disorder, for example, depression, anxiety/panic attacks, and ADHD, and physical disorders such as migraine headaches.Psychotherapy is also an important component of your treatment program. A number of different psychotherapeutic approaches appear to be effective in the treatment of borderline disorder. These include supportive, psychodynamic and modified psychoanalytic therapy, interpersonal therapy, dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), cognitive behavior therapy (CBT), and a variety of group and family therapies. Reference: Mayo ClinicPeople with this disorder can live a productive life. There are many advocacy groups dedicated to increasing knowledge about, and reducing the stigma associated with borderline disorder.I am going to post here some of the top online personality links on the web IMHO.
Mayo Clinichttp://www.mayoclinic.com/health/personality-disorders/DS00562National Instititute Mental Healthhttp://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/personalitydisorders.html The following site has been developed by consumers in order to provide information about DBT (Dialectical behavioural Therapy)http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/
Please do not give up on you. The world is a better place because you live and serve with in it.