my name is David and I am about 26 years old. I am going through some difficult times within my inner self. I sometimes think like i am "going crazy" but i don't think so.
Here are three phrases that describe exactly how i feel :
I'M LOOKING FOR SOMETHING.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS.
BUT WHAT I DO KNOW IS THAT I HAVEN'T FOUND IT YET.
here it is in other words,
THERE IS SOMETHING I'M LOOKING FOR.
BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS.
WHAT I DO KNOW HOWEVER IS THAT I STILL HAVEN'T GOT IT (because i can "feel" it in me that I'm not satisfied)
Is there anyone here with whom these 3 phrases ring a bell ?
Am I the only one to "feel" this feeling ?
Sometimes i feel like it is because i am too alone, too isolated. But when i do go out and meet my family, i don't feel any better and I still feel the absence of this "something", that void. What that void is, like i said above, i do not know.
Is honey all i need . . . ?
I've noticed a pattern of a reoccuring name or idea in my life. That word or idea is "honey". Please bear with me and I will explain.
I've lived briefly in France, in a small village called Mélisey. During my stay in France, i also sojourned in another small village called "Miellin". After that, back home, i purchased Burt's Bees Lip balm in a time where i was not going through such hardships. And more recently, i was recommended by a friend in my church the plant "Melissa" and "Angelica" (look it up in wikipedia). Now, you might be asking yourself, what does Mélisey, Miellin, Burt's Bees Lip balm, and the plant "Melissa" all have to do with anything ? Meli is greek for honey. Likewise, miel in french means honey. The lip balm brand name "Burt's Bees" is about bees, which produce, you guessed it- Honey! The word Melissa also contains the greek word for honey.
After analyzing all this and connecting the dots, and thinking i knew what i needed, i purchased real honey. After all, said Solomon, a little honey is good. But here's the problem, i still feel that same void, that missing "something" in me, even after eating honey. It doesn't have to be a woman in my life. But I don't know what it is. My father suggested that perhaps i have a chemical imbalance in my brain.
Please, anyone, help me.