Hi rtb, I am glad you have found this forum. You will hear from many caring people. You say you drive a truck. I imagine you are gone and alone for long stretches of time. Maybe this is contributing to your depressed feelings. It is not easy to spend so much time alone and away from your family. Have you considered finding counseling? And would you be open to taking an anti depressant medication? I know you are feeling very bad right now but you have a famiy who loves you and cares about you. You are not a failure. You have a job and while it may not be so easy you are providing for your family. You haven't told much about yourself so it is not as easy to give the right advice. Can you tell us a little more about yourself? There are many people here who will answer your posts and try to help you. Please know that you have found a group that is very supportive and if you feel like it you can tell as much as you want or slowly get to know us. I have been helped so much by the HW group and i'm sure you will too. Some of the people here are better friends to me than my own friends I get together with. Please post again and let us know how we can help you.
Hi rtb, Is there something you can do to help you with your feelings of lonliness? Is there a sport or a support group you can join when you are home where you will meet others? I know that you are alone alot but it is true, you have a job and it is getting the bills paid. Is your wife supportive? I am sure she and the kids miss you a lot when you have to go. I am just thinking that some type of activity whether sport or hobby or support group will help you to cope with your feelings. I am always alone in the summer so I do understand the feelings of lonliness. Please post again and let us know what we can do to help you. There are enough people on this forum who have been thru a lot and if we just could know more about you, you may find additional help from the members. I have been helped here more than you can imagine so please keep posting and we will try to get you the support and help you need. Please take good care of yourself. You have a wonderful family and think about how thankful you are for that.
Good Morning and Welcome to HealingWell. I have read your post and I understand how you can be feeling depressed about how things are going right now.
I noted you say you are lonely..........do you just pick up your phone and call your kids or Mother or are you waiting for them to call you. Take charge and make the calls just to stay connected with them.
Also have you had a check up at your physicians lately and talk to him about how your feeling. It is good to open up and let your Doctor know what is going on with you. You are paying his bill so do get your needs met when you are at the clinic.
In all situations that fuel your depression/anxiety, whether they be job related, family related or otherwise, try and think about all the things that you have done right. While its true that it is a good thing to acknowledge things that you can improve on, beating yourself up over mistakes you've made will only increase your anxiety/depression.
It's very easy to become self-absorbed with your own problems and challenges, but by looking beyond your immediate environment, you may find someone or somewhere where you can derive a great deal of satisfaction from helping others.
I know your on the road alot but remember you are never alone, we are here and we support you.