I think you know that when you drink you are causing yourself depression by the way that you posted. That is one thing that you need to tackle.
It takes time to get over a relationship, but that relationship sounds very one sided to me. You were doing all of the traveling. You were doing everything.
You wont be leaving your child by staying where you are. I think you should get into therapy and work on yourself. I think that you can be happy, but you are going to have to work at it. It takes time, so take it one day at a time.
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