I am sorry you are continuing to have these issues. You posted " I've booked a doctors appointment this afternoon but doubt that will do any good." Can you turn that sentence around and try to think in the positive:
"I've booked a doctors appointment this afternoon and I know I am taking a step in the right direction in learning how to deal with my feelings"
I am proud of you for booking that Doctors appointment and remember we are all here to support you.
I am so glad your appointment went well and your med was increased. Good to know your being bumped up on the schedule for appointment too.
My heart goes out to your Mum. Being left out of the wedding plans is very sad.
You keep up that positive attitude and know we are all here and we care.
Our friends are like angels,Who brighten our days.In all kinds of wonderful,Magical ways.