I am glad you have come online and posted your feelings. I am wondering about your meds..........I do not know the max dose for Effexor but do check in with your Doc and see if meds need adjustment or changing.
It may be me but it does seem like you are more depressed away from home. Do you have to stay away so long?
Know I am thinking of you.
My prayers are with you dear friend.Kitt
Why don't you get a jump start on the CBT and use the free online CBT program right now. It may help you until you get back home.
Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.
The MoodGym Training Program
I am praying for you and I am glad you are keeping in touch with your family here at HealingWell.
Remember we control our emotions, and that is where the CBT helps you sort out how you can change your reactions and feelings. If you were critisized by someone today remember only you can process the comment and decide if it is worth letting the comment ruin your day.
Sometimes you have to walk away.
The art of being wise is knowing what to overlook.William James