Please remember that you are special and that you are not in your best place right now so get to that counselor. I did read what you posted and you know we are not professionals, to not be able to promise makes all of us very afraid for you.
We can support you but only you can take the steps to help yourself get better.
I know it is difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel so often but it is there and it is shining brightly, we are holding the candles to light your way.
Hey, some news: I wrote my counselor a note about some stuff and gave it to her. We are suppose to talk about it sometime. I also asked my mom to make me a doc appt. so that I can change, add to, or take away my meds because they arent helping. I also gave her the number of a professional counselor that I want to try. I told her to call and see about the insurance and such so that I would know if I could go or not.
Im not sure if she did what she was supposed to, but I wont let her forget. The point is, I took that step. And it was easier than I thought it would be. I think I just have so much built up inside that its more powerful than my fear of talking about it! So...I did it.
Hopefully this will get the ball rolling and help will become more available. Thanks to you guys!
Christi: I want to let you knw how proud I am of you for standing up to your mother and telling her what you need. And then following through "officially" to get the support to convince her to get it for you. When I was your age, I was petrified of going against my parents - or even approaching them - especially when things were going wrong for me.
You are a very strong person, and you are developing your assertiveness and looking out for your own needs at such a young age. Because of this I know you will be able to overcome or learn how to successfully deal with your feelings and problems before your young adult-hood. And this is a time when many really only begin their journey.
You are wise beyond your years and you are a very caring and compassionate person. Keep up the good work!