Wow you sound like me at certain times of my life. Escapism can also be harmful removing yourself with reality will not help anything it will just postpone it and it is that much harder the longer you dettach yourself from reality. I love my own company but yes everyone gets lonely, I dont actually have many friends myself and the ones I do have they have been around for many years. My family are very close in the way we spend time together but I have always thought that we dont really know each other. I am sorry that things have not worked out with your friends cause everyone needs someone but there are so many people out there that I'm sure you could meet someone. As for the counsellor I know it is hard but I think you should just try give it one decent go you never know it may help? I have lived day to day for the probably about the last 12 years and if thats the way you have to do it that is ok.
I hope things start to look up for you, let me know how you are
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